i am Yours.

`all messed up

2006-12-07T02:25:00.000+08:00

HELLO EVERYBODY ONCE AGAIN I HAVE EXPLORED NEW BOUNDARIES BEING SO ADVENTOUROUS AND IVE SET UP A LIVEJOURNAL.
yes you saw me right a livejournal. (:

hahahaha im currently sorting out all the kinks but it's looking mighty fine!
im still keeping this blog though for tagging though you can tag at my livejournal(?!) and for misc purposes. or when i get bored of livejournal.

anyway the link is http://whygodmadegirls.livejournal.com (:
haha yes dont comment on the name.

bye bye.

oh and brian insists that i apologise to him for calling him a pervert.
said i hurt his tender feelings and uh broken heart.
ok brian a public apology! hahaha

`spice up your life

2006-12-06T22:40:00.000+08:00

Message: Can you name 11 people you can think of right off the top of your head? Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 11 people. This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the name first . NO CHEATING!

1.toktok
2.thong
3.joel
4.zac
5.qazim
6.suihui
7.zhiwei
8.biqi
9.kev
10.kiajin
11.brian

Q1. How do you meet 10? catholic junior college

Q2. What would you have do if you never meet 6? my life would be incomplete HAHAHA

Q3. Have you seen 4 crying? no but he has seen me cry

Q4. What would you do if 2 and 6 dated? THEY ALREADY ARE HAHAHA

Q5. Do you think 1 is pretty? yes inside and outside. (:

Q6. Tell me about 11. he's a psycho and pervertic but he's quite nice sometimes. BUT HE'S VERY DANGEROUS.

.Q7. How did you get to know 8? catholic junior college

Q8. Would you ever date with 5? auntie margaret(joel's grandma) and this girl from another class thinks i am! but i love you qazim still. (:

Q9. What's 7's favorite color? ive no idea BLUE??

Q10. What would you do if 2 confess his love to you? i will kill myself. besides he's ALREADY dating my 2 best friends.

Q11. Fact about 9? he's my pa.

Q12. Who is 6 going out with? number 2. THONG.

Q13. Who is 5 to you? BFFL. (:

Q14. Would you ever live with 11? NEVER NOT IN THIS LIFE OR EVER.

Q15. Is 2 single? i already told you NO. he's dating my 2 best friends!

Q16. How much does 3 means to you? BEST FRIENDS. (:

Q17. What do you think of 1? BEST FRIEND X 8963148979787398 :D

Q18. What's the best thing about 8? she's feminist. (:

Q19. What do you dislike about 10? he's a slob! hahah ok but i accept you through thick and thin. hahahaha

for you guys to enjoy and think about when im gone on hiatus whatever.

`second guess my sanity

2006-12-06T21:39:00.000+08:00

HELLO (: -beams
i was back from korea on friday but i was busy busy busy plus my com's internet was down.
isn't korea pretty i saw it snowing heavily there it was too pretty. (:

haha ok i shall try to stop talking so randomly.

anyway i will WHEN I HAVE THE TIME blog about the korea trip and post up unflattering pictures of me big and fat and ugly in all the clothes and wrapped up like a ninja turtle!
i wore more layers than EVERYONE and i was still freezing.

a typical one goes like this:
the long john- a shirt- a long sleeved shirt- a jacket- windbreaker

too bad i couldn't wear like 3 jeans.

anyway im so so so so sick of the meals there.
and i love skiing and korea has MANY HOT GIRLS and pretty clothes and shopping centres and accessories.
but expensive expensive.
i dont like touchdowns of airplanes the taking off is fine.
i dislike plane food i think i'll order vegetarian next time.
the rest i shall update next time. (:

monday:
supposed to well 'study' with zac BUT we all know how unsuccessful it is.
anyway zac wants to fins a new gf i have to be this voice of rationale and reason. (:

tuesday:
outing with the pioneer og. (:
they haven't changed much it was quite fun.
pool-ed while BRIAN and i stoned.
and BRIAN ENTERTAINED ME THROUGHOUT AND SENT ME BACK THANK YOU. (:
(happy now brian?) hahahah
but he was relatively nicer to me than usual!
KAVEE joined us later and did his usual thing.
we strolled down the singapore river and so on. (:
and then i trained back with KAVEE AND BRIAN. (:

on the train back!
ok guys now dont shoot me i blogged about you. (:

today:
out with the sunday school class with emma the cutest girl alive. (:
learnt some impt news and caught up with the class. (:

i think this blog will be dead a lil while more unless i find time to blog about korea. :/
BECAUSE youth conference starts this sunday! (:
im so excited. (:
but i've to leave on thursday >________<
thanks to the langkawi trip with the school where i'll be away from 14th to 19th.
yes and so i'll miss carolling on the 16th and baptismal on the 17th(sorry yuwen ): )
AND the preview of the christmas concert. ): ): ):
which also means i cant dance for the concert since i wont be there on the 17th.
i feel so _____ about not being able to dance. ):

i really really wanna back out from the langkawi trip now.
plus nathan's going.
sigh sigh sigh sigh

ok i need to start packing tmr since there's so much to pack.
-frowns. ):

will try to update as much as i can!
hahaha i know you'll missed me!

`korea

2006-11-25T09:48:00.000+08:00

tonight im off to korea till friday. (: (:

seriously though i think im quite scared for getting onto the plane but zac thinks that 68 free movies should cheer me up.
MAYBE HAHAHAHA.

ok im off to watch happy feet. (: (:

`finally back!

2006-11-23T14:10:00.000+08:00

ive finally finally finally decided to blog. (:
i wanted to wait till i loaded the pictures but i dont know how so here goes.

THE KAHANG TRIP!
firstly im extremely much darker!! seriously im so so so burnt. and this trip has totally turned me off ANYTHING ORGANIC and OMG HOUSEFLIES and squat toilets and open shower and HOUSEFLIES and HOUSEFLIES and HOUSEFLIES.
the toilets are absolutely disgusting they weren't usable i swear.
when i saw the pictures in the link i thought it was kidding but NOOOOOOOOOOO it's serious i nearly fainted.
there are insects EVERYWHERE and anthills inside! like WTHJKFBQIFNOHIENI!!!
and every 30 or so people that bathe the water supply stops!?!?!?!
omg omg omg la.
and the houseflies are unbearable and omg omg the flypaper was there every single day chocked full BUT still they breed like there's no tomorrow.
and all the cuts and bruises! omg i never knew water lilies are so dangerous la.
i still have all the cuts though im not as bad as some.
and climbing the mountain!!
i got a cut which this psycho buff instructor pressed alcohol into and i screamed for my dear life.
however it is common misconception that i screamed a lot i did not.
well except for the raft building competition which was very very stressful.

but i do concede the activities were fun (:
ZAC I'LL NEVER FORGET HOW YOU DROPPED ME INTO THE WATER WITH FISHES AND FLOATING CUCUMBERS(presumably from our last meal) sigh friends forever somemore.
ok but you kind soul helped me down the mountain.
and held on during the night walk.

OH THE STARS WERE BEAUTILFUL. (:
BUT BUT BUT i wouldn't want to live there because i think i need civilisation no matter how relaxing that place is.
the houseflies and toilet are faintable.

actually there are a lot of small details that i left out but im lazy. hahaha

SO when i came back i just showered TWICE!! and slept and ate proper food. -beams

and on sat i watched casino royale.. and had church. (:
sunday was church and seoul garden with the RHS(minus crystal and carrie plus aaron)
it was quite fun we were laughing like crazy remembering the trip(: but i had to leave early due to daddy being overseas AGAIN.

monday i seriously wanted to go swimming but it rained so i didn't go oh wellllllllllllllllll.
so i missed jamming with the RHS also.
so i stayed home the whole day yeah ok lousy life.

tues finally finally went swimming (:
i really really love swimming you know. (:
as usual i got a terrible sunburn on my back. why cant i get beautiful golden brown tans?!
then we(my sister and i) went shopping. i love shopping on mommy's credit!
shopped for pretty underwear hahahaha spent like 100 bucks plus.
oh then we bumped into suihui and shiwen.
who had her prom like the next day la.
so we went around shopping for dresses and accessories damn stressful la.
but still quite fun (:

wed went to discovery centre!!
uh well it was like propaganda on singapore but some stuff still quite fun. (:
then we towned and watched just friends.
hahaha it's quite a nice show must watch. (:

and i spent the entire day today reading and ive been distractedly blogging for the past 2 hours.
oh ive read 4 out of the 7 books i bought now im at the 5th one.
(:

and i still need to pack for my korea trip where im flying this sat!! (:
oh i'll be gone from 25nov-1dec.
exciting exciting maybe it'll perk up my boring life. hahahaha

going off to church soon to do the xmas deco. (:
im so super excited about xmas! (:
i sound like such a happy bunny in this post and it's so so long.

`kahang!

2006-11-13T13:21:00.000+08:00

omg i cant believe tmr is the trip.
-frowns
from qazim's blog link, this is kahang!!
omg omg omg.
there's like an eco toilet(!!!!) horrors. ):
and everyone looks so happy there.
i hope i'll be happy too. ):
im wearing my fav pair of shoes that has survived years with me if it spoils there i'll just ...faint and shoot myself. ):
even though im pretty sure it'll get wet and i dont want it to.
-frowns.

but i think this is a good chance to finally throw away one of the many bags i have around the house so im bringing this awful backpack(gulps) for the climb and throw it away! (:

and i admit the sunset is pretty fine in the picture.
but.. the free swimming ducks and the early morning stuff.

im trying to get a positive outlook on this is really am. ):
sigh.
AND once again amy's in my group.
i think nathan purposely did this to us.
it's like she's everywhere where i go.
but this time im determined to try to be civil and nice and not have conflicts because i think she's really nice sometimes and funny to talk to.
plus im going to have to spend 4 days with her 24/7!
after a year of pw through conflicts and all and all the baking i hope we really survive his eco camp properly.
so amy, this is a time for truce i guess.

im viewing the camp photos as in the link above on repeat.
it's depressing me
also the fact the im not with zac and pa and qazim and all.
but thanks God that i at least have biqi(!) (: and uh hahaha kiajin.
and pa and zac are in A2.
im in A1 so not as bad.

but im going to try t make this camp fun and not moan or whine.
yes yes shiyun a farmer already.

i also realise that i might get burnt and not tan(as usual) and that it might/will rain and the tent(yes we're sleeping in tents!) will flood.
oh joy.
good good.

on a lighter note, i went shopping with my mom and sis on fri. (:
get some new clothes for the korea trip.
and i got SEVEN new books.
(: (: (:
-Where Rainbows End by Cecila Ahern
-The End Of Innocence by Moni Mohsin
-For One More Day by Mitch Albom
-Mercy by Jodi Picoult
-The Pact by Jodi Picoult
-The Time Traveler's Wife by Aydrey Niffenegger
-The Devil Wears Prada by Lauren Weisberger

im so glad i started reading again. (:
anyway i finished one book already and am 1/5 through my second.

so this blog will be on open hiatus till i come back from the.. kahang trip.

IM SORRY TOKTOK BEST FRIEND OF MY LIFE I CANT GO SHOPPING WITH YOU TODAY. ):
WE'LL GO WHEN I COME BACK OK SWEETS. (:

off to pack and.. see your new teeth! (:
bye folks.

`best you never had

2006-11-10T12:34:00.000+08:00

outing with the rhs(and aaron!) ytd,
it was fuuuunnn. (:

first i went with biqi and carrie to queensway to buy shorts! (:
hahai was like half an hour late thanks to this bunch of tourists who blocked the entire bus queue thanks to thier blur-ness.
sigh which resulted us in being late to meet the guys also.(being lost in queensway and shorts being out of stock contributed too)
in which the guys took great offence?!?!
save for pa, biqi and i were ready to punch any others who complained considering we always waited for them!!!
plus we agreed to meet at 1 not 11 so i dont know what they were complaining about.
haha anyway we were training them for the future when they have girlfriends.

soo we went to the new cathay to buy tickets and hahaha i thought it was extremely funny! (:
lunch was a hugely funny affair in la zesto or sth with it's exorbitant prices.
but it was fun cos of the company. awww.

so we hurried up to watch STEP UP!!
IT IS DAMN NICE EVERYONE SHOULD WATCH IT!
(we made the usual commotion getting in)
(: the girl was super hot the guy was hot and they danced like as yuwen puts it, made of rubber.
oh which reminds me we(meaning aaron) sat beside zac's FRIEND and her bf in the show.
i think she was quite rude but.. -shrugg

then we went shopping and arcade which was super duper funny (:
haha racing games and shooting games=hardcore bonding.
aaron was damn funny la we all video-ed him.

on to dinner where we dominated the place's private room. (:
oh and zac and aaron and i left early and zac sent me back. (:
awww.

ok and i got a papercut i dont know how.

IM GOING SHOPPING NOW. (: (:
bye folks.

`stupid girl

2006-11-09T00:16:00.000+08:00

haha this one is the best one out of all ive seen! (:

anyway i finally got my jumper!! (:

You listened to me
I bet you thought I'd never end,
who would have thought
we would be the best of friends.

(: shiyun you've been such a stupid stupid girl.

'you kill me and keep me alive

2006-11-08T13:50:00.000+08:00

omg she's possibly one of the funniest person ever!!!
(: ok bye folks.

beneath this mask is free falling tears.

'silent tears

2006-11-08T13:08:00.000+08:00

ytd's op went.. not good.
so many things went wrong.
-half our cookies didn't have ginseng in them
-we didn't have nice plates to present them(ended up using the muslim stall one)
-couldn't use joel's laptop thanks to the speaker wire being too short.
-didn't smile a lot, jerky, many fillers(i.e. ermm), too fast

and when the last group was presenting half the audience fell asleep and the external person who JUSt walked in, scolded everyone and threatened to deduct marks.
sigh sigh sigh sigh

and dont get me started on the state of the cookies.

everything went well in the dry run.
-frowns

then i went to watch the guardian.
the show is nice nice nice. (:
it's super touching and courageous.
(: MUST watch!

and i went to vivo city for thefirst time.
that place is like HUGE la.
i think it's impossible not to get lost there.
oh but the outside scenery is super nice also.
it can compete with the esplanade for top hotspots for couples at night.

you couldn't have chosen a better way to hurt me if you had wanted.
well done.
ok that's all folks. (:

`turning the tides

2006-11-06T01:02:00.000+08:00

Between us
There is the line
I can't cross.

`at the beginning

2006-11-06T00:12:00.000+08:00

DEAR TOKTOK ( best friend of my life!!) ,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! (: (: (:
i loved being in paris with you we should travel more often!! (:
i love you for always being there for me,
for your understanding smile,
for all your pep talks that brought me back to reality,
for always being there for me,
for all your sarcasm and truth and honesty,
for trusting in me etc etc etc etc!!! (: (:
IM SO GLAD FOR YOU.
and i thank the Lord everyday for knowing such a great friend like you. (:

keep praying dear and i'll pray for you too.

xoxo,
shiyun! (:
(one whole entry just for one of my favourite people!)

OH AND HAPPY UH FOUR MONTHS WITH THONG!!
hahahaha

`all the difference

2006-11-04T02:07:00.000+08:00

hahaha this was one of the shots for my pw op(oral presentation) video.
no prizes for guessing who i am.

anyway im up doing pw once again.
yes i know!!! hahaha anyway i realised a large part of my pw time online is spent waiting for sth to send or be sent! -frowns.
today was a.. normal day.

chinese A's didn't feel special at all.
so oh well.

i just realised ive nothing to talk about because my life this week has been revolving around pw.
what a joke man.

You Are Mexican Food

Spicy yet dependable.
You pull punches, but people still love you.

What Kind of Food Are You?

AH i heard mexican food is hot. HAHAHA

You Are Cyclops

Dedicated and responsible, you will always remain loyal to your cause.
You are a commanding leader - after all, you can kill someone just by looking at them.

Power: force beams from your eyes

Which of the X-Men Are You?

uh i dont want to be a guy.
-frowns

ok that's all folks. (:

`a new creation

2006-11-02T20:26:00.000+08:00

hello everybody meet ALFRED CHUCK. (:
he was originally the right side of a baby shoe but is now a mighty and valiant protector of my mobile phone. (:

that's all for today, goodbye. (:

`courage

2006-11-02T17:30:00.000+08:00

haha this is what toktok does. (:
oh and through this i learnt how to take screen shots!

anyway i woke up at 11++ to spend the entire day till now watching goong.
(: and didn't study chinese
oh and im gonna do PW once again (ie I&R)
yes so no chinese.

i dont want to care about chinese for the rest of my life.
seriously so tmr i have to take it seriously.
but it's too late for amendments now i guess so on to pw. (:

What You Really Think Of Your Friends

Joel is your soulmate.

You truly love Biqi.

You consider Qazim your true friend.

You know that Yuwen is always thinking of you.

You'll remember Germaine for the rest of your life.

You secretly think Toktok is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.

You secretly think that Suihui is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.

You secretly think that Ben is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Ben changes lovers faster than underwear.

You secretly think Brian is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Brian has a hidden internet romance.

What Do You Think of Your Friends?

got this from qazim's blog.
hahah it's funny. some true some untrue. (:

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

aww

You Are 56% Lady

You're part lady, part modern woman.
Etiquette is important to you, but you brush aside rules that are outdated or silly.

Are You A Lady?

i guess it's.. undeniable. hahaha

You Are 84% Feminine, 16% Masculine

You are totally in touch with your feminine side.
Chances are, you are a very typical woman.
And if you're a guy, then you're just super sensitive.

Are You Masculine or Feminine?

haha this is fun but i must stop. (: I & R.

edit://
oh forgot to mention.
went for kuishinbo buffet with auntie margaret and joel on tues (: after the second OP dry run.
i realised i cant speak in public i get so tense.
anyway it was fun (: and the food is.. hmm good i guess. (:

wednesday:
generally just the six of us the whole day.
zac qazim biqi kev kia and me. (:
it was a typical crazy day with ALL the guys except kev late
as usual.

oh and tmr ive chinese a levels.
did i mention that already?
everyone says i should at least read a bit.
ok i will later after dinner(home-cooked!! (: ) and after doing I&R.
which reminds me nathan wants everyone in school by 715 tmr the BFIJOHOIQLQHTHTP!!!
oh and apologies to the above unreadable parts.
go figure.

bye!

`pw

2006-10-31T03:05:00.000+08:00

PW PW PW PW PW PW PW PW PW

PW
PW
PW
PW
PW.

`be my escape

2006-10-30T01:24:00.000+08:00

hello boys, it's time to give shiyun some protection.

im up ONCE AGAIN due to pw.
just finsihed the video and putting it into the ppt.
BUT i still have not completed my personal final I&R AND have not edited my slides in the ppt.
but i think if i see any more cookie pictures i'll kill myself.

contary to common misconception i dislike public speaking i have a very very very real fear of it. -frowns.

anyway due to my new found skills of baking i think i want to have some kind of shop.
you call, i bake, you collect.
wow. hahaha

When you want to give up and your heart's about to break
Remember that you're perfect, God makes no mistakes.

i LOVE this two lines. (:
thanks toktok for always being there and the two BoYzXzX above.
hahaha WE MUST GO TO THE ZOO.

yay!! (: since ive to wake up at 6 tmr and do pw the ENTIRE day and have no social life i should scoot to bed like now.

oh and extremely HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY YUANZU.
this makes up for the lateness. (:
blue for boys.

`different but same

2006-10-29T20:35:00.000+08:00

Although it may end tomorrow.
The memory will not fade.
For in her heart a life long friend.
She feels that she has made.

indescribable.
unbelievable.

`invisible

2006-10-28T21:40:00.000+08:00

you taught me that i could be invisible.

the silence of a heartbreak is deafening.
just keep smiling.

`im tired of broken hearts

2006-10-24T21:22:00.000+08:00

My heart aches for you
And my stomach is in knots.
Now I had to declare,
The thoughts of my heart.
In hopes that you'd give me,
A place in yours.

):

'a few falling tears

2006-10-24T10:12:00.000+08:00

im not that pissed already i guessed.
but it was an emotional day yesterday and i feel we should get a say in what happens.

firstly i heard that amy said
"shiyun's group will confirm have the worst cookies. they all play around."
and of course it is natural you will get a huge shock when you heard our cookies were a different size.
we got a huge shock too.
here i would clarify why.
in the recipe becky gave us it wrote BAKING POWDER.
now we used exactly as the recipe said but when we went to carrie's house yesterday, we found out they used BICARBONATE OF SODA.
now do you know bicarbonate soda will cause it to expand but baking powder wont?
so if you used baking powder like us, yours would be the same size.
OK CLARIFIED?

and we weren't pissed that you felt our cookies were too small.
im not blind i can see that they were smaller.
but perhaps you heard of using a nicer tone?
your tone and attitude suggested that our cookies were unsellable.
and please do not take out your anger on us ok.
plus it's not our fault that others complain to you.
if you hate it, tell them to stop talking to you.
plus it's a fact that our pw group organised this and you are our leader right?

and i wasn't pissed with you about the whole $10 bucks thing.
fine if you dont want to absorb the price.
when i left to sit at my seat i thought "ok just let go of the issue."
but no amy, you must complain and complain about the whole 'i dont want to give 10 bucks thing' and 'why must i pay for people when i tolerate other's attitude?'
RIGHT. just let go you didn't see me complaining right??
we'll just give the 110 bucks of profit to brother paul ok.

and if you want the class to pay 5 bucks just go ahead im ok with anything since you're the class treasurer and in charge of the money i guess all of us would learn to keep our suggestions to ourselves.
and you wonder what happened to democracy in our class.
now one cant make a comment without lots of bitching, please think about it.

and we didn't force you to deliver cookies.
you said our cookies were too small to be the pre-ordered kind and we accepted that right?
as qazim(in blue) adequately put it,
okay, LHS was supposed to DISTIBUTE cookies.
and RHS was supposed to SELL the cookies anywhere.
okay. no arguements cos everyone agreed.
okay, proper planning was needed.
cos the reserved cookies were NUMBER ONE PRIORITY.
and we didnt want shortage, so yeah.
most of the cookies should be set aside for them.
okay, this is like totally major duh.
andd, this is not really our job.
cos our job is like to sell cookies anywhere we want.
and not to distribute it, agreed?

what happened was fabian came down while we were eating and said
"why are you'll eating? you'll dont want to sell cookies already is it?"
made us sound like we didn't want to do our job and were the lazy ones and pulling back the class.
i didn't know eating was a crime now.

so obviously we hurried to finish our food and sold as fast as we could.
next, initially it wasnt a competition.
it was all fair play, we do our job, you do yours.
accusations were heard and we increased our speed
and efficiency to sell as much cookies as we want
within a limited time range so as to squash the accusations made.
so, its more of defending ourselves rather than compete?
okay, agreed.

ok this is what i just read on amy's blog.
"Lastly, if there is a lack of cookies, den its simply not MY fault. Bcuz the grps din wanna share their cookies cuz they wanted to 'show off' who cld sell the fastest.. So if pple dun get wad they ordered den too bad. Moreover they haven paid."

firstly as we said earlier it was you who said our cookies were too small to give as pre-ordered so OBVIOUSLY we were supposed to sell individually right??
i agree it's not your fault that there is a lack.
the fault lies with the person who counted the pre-orders.
BUT I DONT THINK YOU CAN BLAME US FOR THIS MATTER.
we were not "not sharing" as you put it but please remember you were the one who if i can use the word rejected our cookies in the first place.

AND we were not "showing off".
ok firstly you found us incompetent and our cookies lacking.
so obviously we increased our speed to squash your accusations.

AND EXCUSE ME THE WORST THING IS IF YOU FORGOT THIS MINOR DETAIL, LET ME REMIND YOU.
WHILE WE WERE BUSY SELLING OUR COOKIES(which you proclaimed were too small)
YOU GAVE US SAM'S GROUP ONE TO SELL.
LET ME ALSO REMIND YOU THAT SAM'S GROUP AND YOURS WERE THE ONES THAT WERE RESERVED FOR THE PRE-ORDERED WHICH IF SERVES MY MEMORY CORRECT ARE FIRST PRIORITY.

SO DO YOU THINK IT'S OUR FAULT IF YOU PISSED US OFF BECAUSE FIRSTLY YOU DISDAINED OUR COOKIES AND THEN YOU MADE US SELL ANOTHER GROUP'S AND WHEN FOUND LACKING IN THE PRE-ORDERS YOU BLAMED US?????
for clarification you can ask fabian again im sure he will repeat the conversation that he had with you in class.

and your point on "moreover they haven't paid"
now excuse me, if my memory serves me correct again i seem to remember that you told them that they could pay when they receive the cookies.
so it isn't their fault ok.

and i dont think crystal was being over-demanding when she suggested that we should bake to make up to them.
firstly if you want to be irresponsible it's not my problem.
but your irresponsibility will reflect on the whole class and especially qazim and zac who went up to announce.
and even if you dont consider them your friends i do alright.

and so because of this lack in orders in the end kevin kia biqi and i went to carrie's house to bake more.
and we baked a lot of extras to sel tool.
and we tried to make do and kia wrapped as nicely as he could with cling wrap.
if you didn't know, we still put in a lot of effort and when i had to leave at 10 they were still finishing up the wrapping and cleaning up.
that was also how i found out about the bicarbonate soda if you want to know.
and please on wednesday apply some tact.
if you have constructive comments give.
if you have anything bad to say phrase it nicely or dont say it at all whether in front of us or behind our backs.
im not even expecting thanks ok im not looking for miracles.

and i think before you start pointing fingers next time to blame about the lack in cookies please think carefully ok.
if you still have problems with this issue about my group not sharing and to be blamed thus for the lack in cookies, i would gladly sit down and explain it to you slowly and nicely.

as kev adequately put it,
this whole class cip thing just had a scarp retreat effect.

now ive had my say.
go figure.

`dont pretend you're sorry

2006-10-21T20:51:00.000+08:00

IM SICK. ): ):
i have the whole works like cough, flu and fever. ):
-frowns

and i have like angry red spots all over my forehead.
which looks like an outbreak but is not. ): ):

SIGH

`the day before you

2006-10-20T00:04:00.000+08:00

IVE GOT A NEW BLOGSKIN. (:
as usual im up doing pw.
hahaha anyway i think this is so pretty. (:
and my mood's better probably cos im not in school.

AND I JUST REALISED IN MY NEW BLOGSKIN YOU GET TO SEE THE RUBBISH TITLES I PUT FOR MY BLOG ENTRIES.
oh wellZxZx sacrifices have to be made. hahahaha

yay im so pleased with myself since i did this in like 15 mins.
:DDDDD

`shiyun, you suck

2006-10-19T20:23:00.000+08:00

YOU SUCK SHIYUN. ): ):

i hate myself omg i think im a freak and im so obsessed.
but i know for sure that it's happening just like it always does.
the exchange of glances the secretive smiles the everything.
and i just stand there and make it worse.
i make you'll shut up and get annoyed at the smallest things and most of all i start to block you'll out and i know it.
): GET ON WITH LIFE SHIYUN!!

and to top it all off, i had a horrendous interview. ):

I thought our friendship was special,
I thought it meant a lot.
If you'll felt the same way,
Why are we stuck in this knot?

I wish we'll were best friends again but now all i can do is sit here
and sigh.

`try to be happy.

2006-10-17T21:07:00.000+08:00

sigh i think i cry easily
like i never really realised it before but come to think of it i cried while watching lion king la.
but i still think it's a really really really sad show.
oh well.

anyway crystal said sth really interesting to me today.
"you know shiyun when i first saw you i thought you were sporty!! (: (i know i am hahahaha)
but on afterthought and seeing you for so long i think you're quite bimbotic."
(points to my tote bag and general posture)
i was like stunned la please.

"actually you're a smart bimbo, not like an outright bimbo like me.
but that's an oxymoron. (cue lots of high pitched laughter)"
hahah crystal is SOOOO funny.

anyway im not bimbo cos you need to be stick-thin/pretty to be that.
but im not smart either.
i sleep in class the whole day la.

ANYWAY I LOVE QAZIM AND ZAC FOR THEIR FAN-TABULOUS PERFORMANCE TODAY.
HAHAH IT'S NOT TO BE FORGOTTEN MAN.
hahahahaha

`everything

2006-10-15T21:04:00.000+08:00

i like pictures like this. (:
kids like these are just gonna be heartbreakers you know it. (:

For so long I've been lonely
Drowning in my tears,
No one there to listen
Or help me face my deepest fears.
No one there to shelter me
From this world so full of pain,
No one showed me rainbows
Every time I saw the rain.

No one there to give a damn
About my broken heart,
No one to pick up the pieces
Every time I fell apart.
But, finally someone came along
And took the time to know,
All the hurt and pain
That I tried hard not to show.

He took the time to realize
How much I've had to pay,
For every time I gave of me
There was something taken away.
He took the time to look inside
This heart as cold as stone,
He found that there was something there
No one else has ever known.

He found what I'd been hiding there
Brought it out to show the world,
That there was so much love inside
Of such a lonely girl.
He knew what I was feeling
So he set my mind at ease,
Then he did the impossible -
He gave my soul to me.

So, now I'm going to take this time
To say "Thanks" for all he's done,
And hope he knows I love him more
Than life or anyone.

WOW. (:
you're special.

`pw

2006-10-14T00:34:00.000+08:00

this morning was terrifying with all the bus rides.
woke up too early for a freaking holiday and bused down to becky's house conveniently missing her stop.
and then i crossed the overhead bridge and took the bus and the driver is deaf/blind i believe. so i overshot AGAIN.
i gaveup and walked.
an amazing feat for me at 9am in the morning.
plus i was early.

didn't accomplish anything at her house except painted nails and an hour of sleep.
and maggi mee with chilli padi.
towned to meet pa and watched world trade centre.
it's so so so so touching! (:

then fabian joined us after that and we went to find biqi at her spca thing.
then we had SOUP SPOON. (:
and i convinced pa to take the same way back as me. (:
ok yes highly interesting day you reckon.
im so tired i cant be bothered to type all the exciting details.

like fabian convinced that im dating zac/pa.
ive no idea why he got these ideas.

it's 1233am and im STILL doing pw.
great.

`better

2006-10-11T22:19:00.000+08:00

i was talking to mitch today and he was telling me about depressing things and how he couldn't play basketball anymore.
so i told him to start his own team and he told me i was crazy and if i thought he was that good.
and so i told him i thought he was as good as....

MICHAEL JACKSON.

fine, i realised my mistake!!!
it's michael JORDAN.
eh ok so??? it's not on purpose!
and i really mixed up! im not a fan of bball anyway.
SIGH

anyway the post before was toooooo emo.
hahahaha im fine now because i smell good. amazing what a bath does. (:
I WANT TO BUY THE FOLLOWING SHIRTS.
AND MANY OTHERS.
i think david and goliath is so unique la. hahahahha
and ultra funny. (: i esp like the 'guys in glasses are hot one'
damn funny. (:

CUTE RIGHT!
(: hahaha it's time for a wardrobe revamp.

and and and im going to learn how to wear heels. (:
ive got my eyes set on one. (: (:
ok more than one.

all i need now is cash and exercise and EXERCISE AND EXERCISE.
(note: if i need a lot of cash to buy everything i want and the ratio of cash to exercise is 1:3 imagine how much i need!)

Dream, Wishes and Tears
If dreams were given to a lonely man
and a lonely man's dreams came true,
I'd force myself to sleep all the time
just so I could dream of you

If wishes were given to a lonely man
and I was given just two,
I'd wish for you to always love me
and the other I'd give to you

If my tears could write a love song
I'd write a love song for you,
It would explain just how I feel inside
and how much I love you too

But, dreams are only dreams
and wishes seldom come true,
My tears can't write a love song,
but when they fall,
they fall for you.
-Sir Shotgun

wow. (:

`love

2006-10-11T21:00:00.000+08:00

my heart keeps falling faster.

i just deleted an entire blog entry.
and my itunes is screwed.
and i cannot say/do anything to help my friends.
i cannot take away the pain and i cannot ease the grief.
i just feel like the most damn useful person on earth right now.

and i just feel so freaking pressurized im going to puke.
yeah i know im being emo.

and come on if you're not happy spit it out.
stop staring at me.
go harass someone else.

i hate feeling like this.
i just wanna scream till i cannot breathe and im all spent.

dont pretend you're sorry

`dirty lil secrets

2006-10-06T22:48:00.000+08:00

i LOVE this song.
and i LOVE LOVE the music video.
oh if you cant see click here!
i decided should stop being so emo.

RULES: set your ipod to shuffle mode. click to answer these questions in order.

This is my anthem: we're all in this together-high school musical
hahaha uh not really

This will be my wedding song: heaven knows-rick price
hahaha omg

This song will be played at my funeral: DROWNING-backstreet boys
HAHAHAHA this is a joke.

I first saw the love of my life while this song was playing: here i am-brian adams
(: ah i wouldn't tell.

This song is ALWAYS stuck in my head: breaking free-high school musical
yeah when i first heard it

This song reminds me of my ex: L.O.V.E.-ashlee simpson
eh not at all

I love to have hot, passionate sex to this song: good day-click five
well i wouldn't know but maybe

I love to have slow, soft, love-making sessions to this song: don't tell me-avril lavigne
i do like this song hahaha

My mom was humming this tune when she gave birth to me: this is the last time-keane
actually i dont think so since i have a younger sister. hahaha actually i think women with labour pains wont hum they scream.

No matter how many times I hear it, I'll NEVER get sick of this song: one day-simple plan
uh ive never heard this song

This song is the best song ever written: where'd you go-fort minor
not really there are so many better ones

This song is the worst song ever written: imagine me without you-jaci velasquez
there are definitely worst and this song is quite nice

When I'm crying, I always play this song: the adventure-angels and airwaves
not at all i dont even think about this song

When I'm happy, I always play this song: because of you-kelly clarkson
haha this is so twisted but i know what i'll play 'that thing you do-the wonders'

When I'm horny, I always play this song: true-ryan cabrera
i actually love this song but uh i think this's out of place again

When I'm pissed off, I always play this song: nature's law-embrace
hahaha this reminds me of the class and their karma thing

This song describes my love life: without you-jesse mcCartney
(:

This song reminds me of my family: far away-nickelback
hahaha i think this is funny

This song reminds me of my best friend: perfect-simple plan
the title describes but the song is well, go figure.

If I had my own reality show, this song would be the theme song: october skies-waking ashland
i quite like this song now. (:

I always sing this song when I'm drunk: stars-switchfoot
haha im never drunk cos i dont drink

I want my significant other to sing this song to me on my birthday: remember the name-fort minor
why would i want this song??? hahahaha

This is the ultimate party song: deja vu- beyonce feat.jay-z
ooh

I dance around in my room [naked] to this song: everyone-backstreet boys
not naked and not this song. hahaha

This is the warm-up song to every sport at my school: testify to love-bethel ypg
hahahaha i hope so but i doubt it

This song makes me all hot and bothered: i'd do anything-simple plan
hmmm maybe

I swear that this song was written about me: pour My love-bethel ypg
i really hope so. (:

hahahaha im psycho i know.
stop being so emo shiyun.

`invisible

2006-10-06T21:56:00.000+08:00

today i felt invisible.

`quiz! (:

2006-09-30T01:21:00.000+08:00

if you always wondered what i do when i wait for my sis to figure how to use the ipod at 130am.

maybe I should try walking upside down

I love the mudpie at island creamery

I don't understand how i became so fat

I lose sleep over you

people say everything

love is still holding my hand in the rain

when I like someone I'm.. deranged HAHAHAH

Somewhere someone is walking on their hands

I will always conform

'forever' is.. a very long time

I never want to grow fatter

I think the current US president is George Bush(im quite sure)

I will never eat insects

my past is none of your business(ATTITUDE)

my greatest fear is the dark

I get annoyed when there are no taxis when i need them

kisses are the best when time is not a factor

tomorrow is saturday. thank God it's the weekend (:

I really want to go on a farm stay.(random i know)

I have low tolerance for people who dont return my calls LIKE ZAC.

yay hello hello (: hahaha i completed this in like 5 mins.
everything is like the first thing that came to my head. (:

oh i realised that recently everyone's liking giraffes and eeyores. (: and red.
maybe im influential(RIGHT) or maybe im a trendsetter hahaha like qazim likes to think himself to be.
therefore ive decided to write a list of things i like.
however, it must be noted that this list is subjected to change at any whim and fancy. (though some would remain forever and ever i hope)

GOD
(in a league of His own which transcends all others to infinty and beyond)

BETHANY (: (: (: (: <3

GIRAFFES. (: (:
EEYORE
RED

MY BESTIES FOR LIFE LIFE LIFE LIFE

mudpie
oreo cheesecake
honey stars
waffle crisps
my pink(NOT bimbotic) ipod
my phone(for once this is really really true)
white colours(like my phone background)
pastel stuff
my purse (: (:
pretty ribbons
saying random things just to shock people
mushroom soup
candy empire
nice sappy love songs/boybands(ok i exist in my own era)
cookies and cream anything
ICE CREAM <3
quirky worded shirts

ok this is tough to suddenly rmb but if you walk down the street with me i think you'll find out a lot in one day. maybe i'll just post in late random posts.

`my perfect

2006-09-30T00:56:00.000+08:00

I've trawled the oceans,
the rivers and the seas
seeking something that's so special
the likes I've never seen.

I've searched the beaches
far and wide
the coves and pools so deep
But never have I found
the item of my quest.

I've even tried the shops
the factories and jewelers too
To no avail
this thing cannot be found.

I've been around the world
asking on my way
but nobody can tell me,
where it lies
or whether it is under, or
just laying on the ground.

My search has been in vain,
to find this perfect piece
no matter how I try
the answer's just the same.

"No we've never seen it,
look some other place".

Now after all these years
of disappointment and distress
I've given up the chase.
Because, now I've found what
I was looking for.
-Carl Rimmer

I found you. (:
hello hello (:
my sister's ipod came too so im helping her.
since im such a tech genius. (:

today biqi, zac, kev and kj came over and squeezed in my lil house.
and we watched 5 movies in a row.
it's really quite tiring but fun in an indescribable way. (:
anyway i heard nathan got scolded. hahahaha he got it coming man.

oh it's 1am now.
heh it's good to not have exams. (: (:
ok i wont gloat please study hard all you clowns and dont let me down.
hahaha

`PROMOS ARE OVER

2006-09-28T13:54:00.000+08:00

hello i survived the promos albeit a LOT fatter and with a complete lack of sleep and an extremely puffy face but hey, the worst is over. (:

hahaha we watched john tucker must die.
(: it's a super nice chick flick.
i loved it. (: ok except the lesbian kissing part! >____<
hahah that face is damn cute.

haha then we went to zac's house.
the rest im too lazy to talk about.

im feeling so good that even the drilling upstairs(yes they're still drilling) is not annoying me. (:

as per custom, i would have to talk about pw.
haha amy's coming over to do then we have to go down to school cos nathan is such an annoying man.
he wanted the whole class to go to school but didn't tell us what time so he went to complain to bro paul and now BP wants to talk to us.
nathan said we were supposed to be in school by 8. weird how come uh none of us heard it??
obviously the highly probable factor that he didn't say is absolutely true.
haha he's such a joke.

oh and im SEVENTEEN. (:
thanks to all the lovely people who remembered! (:

ok BYE!

`heart and hands

2006-09-21T21:04:00.000+08:00

Just meet me in the stars, that is where I will be.
A special place in the stars just for you and for me.

`approaching promos!

2006-09-15T15:16:00.000+08:00

boys never attempt to understand the female mind.

haha the feminism in my class was heightened this week with MUCH screaming and high pitched voices and distortions!
and of course zac's wonderful tactlessness.
hahahah in going with me to dental the receptionists came up with the guys being my bodyguards?!
do i look that in need of protection? anyway zac marvellously adapted that to me being the pimp and he,kev, CRYSTAL AND PRISSY being prostitutes!
hahaha which undoubtedly created a humongous uproar.
and he told us the next day in school that he liked girls with short hair which none of us on the rhs(right hand side) have. hahaha
and obviously the rest of the guys would have to be pulled in being uh buddies.
so,
kev: silence is golden.
girls: are you saying we're noisy???

in reply he faced the window
prissy: he thinks we're too ugly.

omg hahahah super funny. so much happened.(refer to qazim's blog for details)
and crystal resumed being vengeance girl also.
oh and we got biqi her birthday presents.
which reminds me,
HAPPY BRITHDAY BIQI! (:

we got her a marauder's map and a book for record of undoings of the boys! hahaha

THIS is what ive been doing nearly every gp and geog lesson this week and when im trying to study.
anyway the lhs thinks that we're all muggers(as in the rhs) which is so weird!
hahaha but i really really wanna pass my promos properly.
i initially started out with wanting to get C's for everything but i think now i'll just be realistic.
and PROMOS START NEXT MONDAY.
WHEE.

bye all you sadistic morons.

`BRC

2006-09-07T21:53:00.000+08:00

i like this picture a lot. (:
these two guys, zac(left) and qazim(right) are extremely wonderful friends(most of the time!).
and i love them because they always stand up for me. (:
ok and i think half the school population think im tgt with zac which is like so weird?
oh and the girl in my chem class thought i was tgt with qazim! hahahah
and i like this pic because IM TALL! (:
and and and they try to look fierce which is extremely funny.

hahaha bel is such a ditz! (:

*sy perfection is like chivalry; non-existent. says:
hahaha oh well
*sy perfection is like chivalry; non-existent. says:
that was so last year
isabel*/ says:
last year??
isabel*/ says:
but u were in pj only this yr.
*sy perfection is like chivalry; non-existent. says:
it's a figure of speech
isabel*/ says:
OHH.
isabel*/ says:
HEE.
*sy perfection is like chivalry; non-existent. says:
hahahaha
isabel*/ says:
say tt was so in the past instead la!
isabel*/ says:
im a dumb blonde.
isabel*/ says:
hahaha
*sy perfection is like chivalry; non-existent. says:
haha I KNOW!!

see! (:
oh i rmb bel likes the colour purple.

oh toktok and i went to try the smelly beancurd today.
it was awful!!! it's like worse than smelly boys.
and i DETEST smelly boys.
and and and when you eat it you can like taste the smelliness. serious!!!
it just wants to make you make the awful scrunched up face.
sth like >______< that!!!

oh and shu(as in shuqin) if you're reading this, toktok wants me to tell you that i speak untruths on my blog and that you shouldn't believe anything i write here.
but shu between you and me, you know how toktok is so shy about relationship stuff we should help her be more open. (:
that's what friends are for! esp best friends. (:

oh toktok likes kinky songs(like qazim!)
'i'll let you whip me if i misbehave'
-sexy back

on a worse note, I TOOK FOUR HOURS TO FINISH READING 35 PAGES WORTH OF READINGS. on minerals which is extremely extremely boring!
-frowns.
AND AND AND I STILL HAVE THIS TERM'S LECTURE NOTES AND 50 PAGES OF READINGS!
and it's friday tmr. ):

how am i ever ever ever ever ever going to complete human geog??
which has like two or three times the readings i think.

yingwei says:
pls don't mention untruths
yingwei says:
and pls don't add in embarrassing stories
yingwei says:
eg the panasonic one

hahaha she just reminded me! (:
we(toktok joel and i) were at bk the other day.
and toktok just couldn't stop using her phone!
so joel and i were talking.
the conv went sth like this.(it's NC16 by the way)

me: omg she's still on the phone and she's ignoring us
joel: we should paste a panasonic sticker on our forehead then maybe she'll talk to us
me: right then she has to press our face??
joel: uh no? the face will be the screen then she'll press the body.
me: -dumbfounded for 5 secs.
right no absolute way.
joel: where's thong when we need him?
me: oh thong wouldn't need the panasonic thing. all he has to do is walk in and the phone immediately disappears.
(i cant rmb the rest but you get the gist)

anyway after 5 mins she finally gets off hte phone and stops msging and says sth like
"so did i miss anything?"
nothing dear. (:

you see everytime i go out with toktok, it's her, me and her phone.
anyway we're ranked like this in her life
1) THONG
2) PHONE
3) joel and me

oh well some things just cant be helped.

im still trying to upload the videos with fabian in them anyway.
cos they're really really funny/ demented. (:

he's so beautiful,
such a beautiful diaster.

`things i like/want

2006-09-07T13:09:00.000+08:00

the topic today is potential cravings (:
first up is THE mudpie from island creamery which i think is better than nydc's cookie monster mudpie. (: (:
IT'S SO GOOD. (:

this needs no further explaination.

i like candy empire.
the guy in front of it is redundant and insisted on being in the picture.

THIS is what bel and i uh dream off.
PERSONALLY I THINK IT'S DISGUSTING.

yay! (:
more pictures from my phone.
i HAVE to finish physical geog by today. i was supposed to finish ALL my geog by today la.
see unproductive. -frowns.

tuition ytd was devastating.
after that zac wanted to roll under the bus and die??
go figure.

i really really really want to have the mudpie now. ):
i think i should learn to have more determination.

Rainbows created my imagination
As it arched across the sky
On one end there sat you
At the other end, there sat I

Imagining I could slide across
Over the rainbow to the end
There would be my pot of gold
The sweet love of my dear friend

The rainbow is a connection
Like a bridge from me to you
It appears joined by sunlight
Then the grey skies turn to blue

Arriving after the rainstorms
It became so evident to me
Thoughts of love follow rainbows
They arched right across the sea

A colourful arching rainbow
It has no gate, it has no door
It reaches from friend to friend
It arches from shore to shore

I smiled up today at the sky
How far would my loving smile go
It slid right over to the other side
The other end of the coloured rainbow

(:

`again

2006-09-05T14:03:00.000+08:00

drew all this during econs lecture. haha

oh this is my fav. (:

hahah this is only in the book for this term and it's only like 30% of the drawings la.
and ive lyrics of a few songs in there too! (:
ok you know i really shouldn't be so happy about this.

anyway i just typed out an entire entry and it's gone!!
i hate it when it it happens.
ok anyway I HAVEN'T STUDIED THE ENTIRE DAY THANKS TO SOME ANNOYING TWERPS UPSTAIRS WHO WANT TO DRILL THROUGH THE ENTIRE BLOCK I THINK!

and to think i intended to finish all my geog by this week.
like both human and physical.
sometimes i think i should not try to attempt the impossible.

anyway joel and i foiled toktok and thong's dating plans!!
hahah they were planning to go out behind our backs! tsk tsk.
so now all of us are gonna watch the devil wears prada tgt. (:
-beams

so i guess we're just gonna live with this void.
it's just so amazing how things turn out isn't it? but in a funny way im so glad i made the right choice. that i have friends who are always there beside me and see through your whole bunch of lies and help me discern who you really are. but you know contary to what you think, you really dont matter that much to me. and you might come up with a thousand and one reasone to explain your momentary lapse but the fact is you just cant cope with who i am. well, too bad that's just your loss then.
cos you know i dont even have to pretend i care.

HERE I COME. (:

`qazim

2006-09-01T23:16:00.000+08:00

WALLY(qazim) and the broccoli. (:
his tie's super cool and he's wearing make-up!
AND HE HAS A DOG(in the drama) CALLED FIFI.
i'll never let him live this down.

and another one. i look weird in this pic cant pinpoint why though.

hahahaha pretty boy(fabian) and i were saying that he looked like an extremely tired boyfriend who is bringing flowers to his girlfriend in hospital.

this is fabian being a narcissist as usual.
hahahaha he thinks zac and i are tgt(like half the school population i think!)
toktok was telling me today that annmarie told shu who told her that i have a boyfriend in school aka zac.

I FEEL SO MISUNDERSTOOD.

ok shall show you more photos and uploads my videos next time too!!!
haha then you'll see fabian the supermodel and fabian the demented guy.

`studying

2006-09-01T22:58:00.000+08:00

hahaha now i have evidence! (:
THONG, are you jealous?

ok this is a typical studying table of toktok and me.

i bought her a flower!! (:
i love making making her happy.

FINALLY updated my phone's pictures. hahaha there's more to come folks!
see cos my phone's the trusty camera that i bring around. (:

went to study with toktok today.
haven't spoken to her in like ages and ages la
hahaha

ok folks more pics to come! (:

anyway i couldn't find the song i wanted to i'll try to rmb to find it cos it's really super nice!
but this one's so indescribably nice too. (:

I wear my seatbelt in the car I buckle up for safety
I run for cover from the storm
I wear a band aid on my knee
I look both ways when crossing and I flee
Any danger I can see
And if I try each day to save my life in every way I can
How could I understand the way
You died for me

(Chorus) 'Cause I don't know if I could even if I think I would
If I had to die for someone
If I had to die for someone else
How could I ever give my life to set the guilty free
When I cannot imagine
If I had to die for someone else like me
Someone else like me

I keep away from falling rocks and I don't play with matches
I lock the door I don't know why
It seems to me I'm much too old to wear a scarf out in the cold
But I want to live until I die
I guess I love my life a little more than I should love it
And if I had to I don't know if I could
Lay it down

And I am glad that You are not at all like me
'Cause You laid down Your life and did it willingly
It still amazes me to know
It's me that
You were thinking of
No One else could have a greater love

super nice right. (:

`touched

2006-09-01T22:04:00.000+08:00

omg it's super touching right.
i cried like crazy.
the son is a a spastic quadriplegic, cerebral palsy, non-speaking person which makes him like slow in everything and he wanted to compete.
so his father who's 65(!) by the way did it.
and they weren't last if you haven't realised.

you know and it got me thinking if human love could do so much, how much more our Father in heaven. (: there's a song to this i shall find it and post the lyrics. (: (:

anyway i shall only post happy stuff. (:

QAZIM'S PERFORMANCE YTD WAS GREAT!
he was the only reason davin kept awake!!
hahaha and he was really good even though it's like his everyday character.

and zac kept commenting on the prettiness of sondra.

and we gave qazim a broccoli!!!! (:
and kev and biqi sunflowers. (:
ok we did give him one too in the end. (:

ok im gonna upload more pictures now. (: (:

sorry we interupt this programme to bring you a very serious and truthful message:

i miss you. ):

aww.

`no mistakes

2006-08-29T01:23:00.000+08:00

When you want to give up and your heart's about to break
Remember that you're perfect, God makes no mistakes.

i have a feeling im going to wake up tmr with bad hair and bad complexion but im going to cheerful not because that's what i do everyday but just because! (:
ok i can feel it's a good start already.

`back

2006-08-29T00:20:00.000+08:00

when your friends are down, BE THERE FOR THEM. (:
<3 you.

lately, everyone's life's been falling apart.
and aptly the song playing now is welcome to my life.
WEIRD.

_______.
even though everything might seem as though it's falling apart and you dont know who to trust anymore, always know you'll have me!
and of course even more reliable than me, a God that's always there 24/7 just waiting to listen to your woes for you to confide in Him even though He knows all.
so just trust in His will and His plan because they are good. (:

dont cry all of you, it's wasted on these QHDWQHRGRWGNBQI.

______.
dont bother about boys and their insensitive behaviour.
sometimes i think(ok nvm what i think).
just keep your girlfriends near and we'll personally break the neck of the guy that breaks your heart!
hahahaha or we can use crystal's brazilian fireants!

yes there've been an onslaught of upset people lately.
and almost all of which have to do with bitching etc.
amazing how words can bring so much hurt.
reminds me of this line in othello that pa(kev) and i were reading today.

haha and i found out some words people say i am behind my back:
lazy
selfish(this was a first man)
bitchy
bimbotic(you're supposed to be pretty which im not as jotham told me frankly)
flirt(because i hang out with guys hahaha now that's a real crime if ive seen any)
so now you know what people do when they have nothing else to do! (:

anyway i was just thinking you know about things.
i shall try to be nice to be abigail since she's not sitting beside me and i'll try not to be so freaked out by her even though everyone keeps scaring me.
and i'll try to be nice and kind and patient to people who insists on simply saying sth bad about everyone then saying that they shouldn't because of karma and that it'll happen to them(eg grow uglier)
and be extremely tolerant of people who have comments to make on everything and anything and stories(true/untrue?) about everything under the sun.
and even more loving to those that insists in front of you to, you know, put the past behind then bitch about you to the rest of the world. ah those, of course need the most special care and concern because these people are just SO weird!
the list goes on but you get what i mean.

on a lighter note, i saw kavee today! (:
hahahaha and we got all four spongebob toys from BK.
CHICKEN CHEESESTICKS. my new love.

oh and i found out that zac's going to start going to the same tuition as me!
how cool is that! hahahaha he thinks we're fated to marry!

and other random facts:
pa and i started night study today. we're trendsetters for our class and we experienced such terrible temperature changes.
ive got a breakout from the fedora hat during anniversary dance! -frowns.
it has advanced to such a stage that it is painful and never-ending(refuses to go away)
SIGH

oh and of course how can my post be complete without pw.
i finished the written report(ie completed the word quota) cos nathan refused to mark???
from 1684 to 2317 words. (:

this's such a weird/unusual entry.
i think it's the nights that do this to me!

`new skin!

2006-08-24T00:58:00.000+08:00

IVE GOT A NEW BLOGSKIN!
(: ok hmm i like the picture and it indirectly motivates me to want to lose weight.
beside it's simple, pure and white. (:

anyway the transparent box is like too small!
i need help because this is beyond my vast technological expertise.
hahaha my blog's going to be real pretty soon. (:

ok bye weirdos!

`finally

2006-08-23T23:55:00.000+08:00

OMG BLOGGER IS FINALLY BETTER.
waited super long for it to load!
anyway i wont post pictures up so that everyone will stop complaining about how long it takes to load!

monday:

the major event was phototaking after which the teacher had another 20 enemies added to her list.
omg seriously she was like hurting crystal!
like pressing her fingernails into the neck and screaming at all of us.
i mean like hello?? we do not buy shirts by our neck size??? are you like dumb??
isn't it like duh of course we're pissed at you!
and she yelled at biqi for crossing her legs simply she cos she was waiting for us!
and she pulled my skirt till it was gonna like touch my ankles or sth and the worse teacher of the year RENGANATHAN added so many comments!
"see what i put up with everyday" and "so bloody defiant"
some people just dont know when to shut up.
oh and she was like "your yearbook is going to be published all over the world in the tourism industries and people everywhere will see it! paris, japan, england and even china! if you want to get rid of it you must burn all the libraries down!"
burn her more like it la.
and she said that when we go to work people will refer to our yearbook!
hahaha born comedian man.
and nathan scolded lace and me for laughing???

then as usual we towned(qazim kev biqi zac and me)
where zac made his famous joke.
'why did the chicken cross the road?'
'to get a halal sticker!'
which of course granted him a pinch at his nipple after which he was speechless for ten mins!
hahahahaha

tuesday:

our class turned into a fantasy land. (ok the following is copied from qazim's blog)

harry potter = kevin chow
hermione = lee pek kei.
ron weasley = goh kia jin
fred weasley = weiying
george weasley = priscilla
bill weasley = claudio chock
percy weasley = aaron tay
mrs weasley = lovelle
rita skeeter = amy
cedric diggory = zach
cho chang = shi yun
padma patil = crystal
parvati patil = carrie
lavender brown = priyanka (who gets to kiss ron!)
3headed dog = you know who
professor trelawney = ME(qazim)
fleur = lace
peeves/ draco malfoy = yonglin
neville longbottom = fabian
ginny weasley = rachel tan
dean thomas = zixiang

colin crevey = chicken little.
penelope clearwater = xin fang
hagrid = samuel
lee jordan = nato
seamus finnigan = alfred
pansy parkinson = enemy
dolores umbridge = bitch who scolded us for phototaking
trolls = SUBWAY PEOPLE FOR KICKING US OUT.

prof binns = mr glascow
prof flitwick = ms moh
prof sporuts = mrs tan
snape = renga/daphne tan
madam hooch = mr tay (PE)
gilderoy lockhart = mr tay (geog)
dobby = mr low
mcgonnagal = ms lim

CHARACTERS NOT T BE NAMED:
mr dursley/ mrs dursley.
dementors/ luna lovegood/ moaning myrtle/ shredded basilk/dyin and baby voldemort/ BOGGART (same person)peter pettigrew/whomping willow/dudley (same person)troll/merpeople/3headeddog/madame maxim (diff people)

OKAY, WELCOME T FANTASY WORLD OF t08.
where noone dies or get aids. :D

omg omg fri's pe change to econs lesson la!
i rather have pe anyday. ))))))))))))):
and promos are like in 3 weeks time?????

hahaha oh in assembly today qazim was pointing at the cj hall of fame thing and bro paul was like "you want your name to be up there? show me the results."
hahaha i think qazim has a better chance of being the priest.
ok no comments against qazim!
rmb zac's punishment!
hahaha

I shed a tear today
Silently, I felt it fall
You caught it
shared it
held it
felt it
then
suddenly
it wasn't
so big
after all
-Marge Tindal

`special day

2006-08-22T21:42:00.000+08:00

this's one of the dances. (:
the solid rock dance. it's a bit shaky and i took it off nat(THE MAN)'s blog! (:

FOR YOU>3. (:

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Everyday I love you more and more

Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you

And there's no mountain too high no river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather and stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day
Oh come what may, come what may
I will love you

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place...

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day

yay! (:
today, nothing brings me down.

`anni 4

2006-08-21T21:48:00.000+08:00

edwin and me (:
hahaha joel and i gave him a maozetung for xmas!

they were trying to do a shot for macho men of the year.

see this are the people that cant stop posing for my cam.

even though nick looks like a devil(because he's nervous! hahaha)
i like this picture.
just because...
hahahahaha REJOYCE.

`anni 3

2006-08-21T21:44:00.000+08:00

batch picture. (:

me, nadine and huiling.
they're so so so so cute!
and nadine FINALLY talked to me. (:
oh she gave me her phone no(like handphone) and she has 2 email accounts and her own laptop.
and hse's primary 2!

solid rock dancers. (: and adel! (:

some random picture.
left to right: nick, qy, edwin, moses(mousey), me and sui!

`anni 3

2006-08-21T21:40:00.000+08:00

me and joyce. her dress is really pretty. (:
and joyce is pretty too. (:

me and yuwen. (:
she wears the prettiest things!

me and auntie margaret. (:
hahahaha she wants to teach me to cook.
i would say she's really brave.

joel and me. (: (:
i like his new hair.

`anni 2

2006-08-21T21:31:00.000+08:00

sui and i doing our usuals hahaha

me and DAvin.

i think nat's hot with his braces!
but he's taken by yuwen AND a mysterious girl.

tanya, christina and me.
they make me feel very fat.

WHICH REMINDS ME MY LOSE WEIGHT REGIME STARTS...
UH SOON.

`anniversary

2006-08-21T21:18:00.000+08:00

the funny/ cute/weird pictures.

gavin played the 'don't move!' game with them.
ie they were not supposed to move till he came back smart right?
they're so cute! (:

the anorexic club. left to right: sui(vice-president), nick(president), qy(cleaner)

i dont know!!! hahah it looks uh wrong!

yes the annual attack of the dessert table.

anniversary was fun and meaningful. (:
the dances preoccupied me a lot but it was special knowing that mommy was in the audience and she brought a friend! (:
and tanya and christina came! (:
i wont type everything about it but it was really indescribable.

supposed to do my geog tutorial but i didn't bring my notes back so it's just not meant to be! hahahaha

i'll keep this short since ive still lots of uploading to do.
i realised uploading pictures makes me happy. (:
and i really need some uplifting after the horrible day today.
(sorry about the flustered-ness!)

happy 2 years.
for you, tomorrow. (:

I hear them whisper your name,
those mighty winds that blow.
I know that you are close at hand,
the winds just told me so.

The direction from whence they blew,
I am not sure I know.
For only when I hear your name,
am I sure the winds did blow.

Caressing my face with a whisper ...
calling out your name,
the winds of delight entice me.
I will never be the same.

I will follow the singing wind.
where it leads me I do not know.
For the winds that blew you from me ...
will take me where I must go.

Upward into the hills,
calmly across the sea,
Hold on my love, I'm coming...
The wind has beckoned me.

Free to wander and search this earth,
no matter how far that may be.
Free to follow the whispering wind ...
until it blows me back to thee.

I hear your laughter on the wind.
I try with all my might,
to reach out and touch you
on this windy night.

You must be getting closer
for I feel your whispered love.
I reach out my hand to you,
please find me, my sweet dove.

You grasp my hand in yours
and softly speak my name,
out of the whispering winds
We are together again.
-Marge Tindal

not everything needs to be shown or shouted. (:

`sleep

2006-08-16T01:48:00.000+08:00

i need to sleep.

`pretence

2006-08-16T00:15:00.000+08:00

cause now i have to pretend i dont really care.

i feel so angst today.
-frowns.

i might want to change my blogskin to this.
what do you think.

anyway i finally completed my eom draft. joy.

my promos are in.. 4 weeks time.
good good.
im going to get retained.

i want my throat to get better.

im writing random stuff. bye.

i going to smile tmr because that's what i do everyday.

with gentle fingers
and sleepy eyes
we fell in love

I always tangled the
stars in your hair
I always kissed
the scars on your hands

but now
I have
sorrow
and
one million pictures of you

lodged in my chest

`the lion sleeps tonight

2006-08-15T22:06:00.000+08:00

for all my class people who love to sing.

hahaha which is qazz zac and kev.

now my post has some annoying space thing.

see i cant enter without this space up there!

im trying to do my eom again.

oh in case you're wondering what qazz is tagging about, zac's barker friend(who's in cj) thought i was tgt with zac. then he saw me in town with joel and msged zac and told him that his gf(me) was cheating on him! hahaahhaha

i hate the space thing!!!! BYE.

`sexually stunning

2006-08-13T22:01:00.000+08:00

shiyun --

[adjective]:

Sexually stunning

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

I HATE LIES.

hahahahah this is such a joke.

`and more

2006-08-13T21:50:00.001+08:00

I know where you live.

XOXOXOXO,
E.T.

'What crappy greeting card will you receive?' at QuizGalaxy.com

hahahahaha i like this one.

`more quizzes!

2006-08-13T21:50:00.000+08:00

haha see what happens when i dont concentrate on my eom.

Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com

`quizzes

2006-08-13T21:47:00.000+08:00

'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

ok at least im missed by prince charles.

the rest i do not understand!

`pretence

2006-08-13T21:29:00.000+08:00

As Days Flew Past

The very first time I saw you,
Was special how we met.
You took me by complete surprise.
I knew my heart was set.

As days flew by, we talked again,
But you never seemed to care.
I tried my best to help you out,
By a favor here, or a favor there.

Although I made a fast approach,
Our friendship grew and grew.
I realized how deep I cared,
But the feeling I felt was new.

In time I became attached to you.
From a hug, I wouldn't let go.
I soon saw how close we were,
And the feeling was good to know.

For you, I wrote sweet letters and songs.
You were on my mind all day.
The thought of sleeping was nowhere near,
Unless I knew you were okay.

It hit me then, what I was in -
A unique and precious love.
For the person I said was only mine,
Was an angel sent from above.

The minutes without you turned into days,
And the seconds with you flew fast.
I could only wish to see you more,
And make each moment last.

The times I spent with you,
Were what made my heart complete.
I knew one thing for sure,
Without you, my future was obsolete.

And now, we love just the same,
As it doubles day by day.
I stare deep into your precious eyes,
Yet I'm still speechless to what I should say.

With you, I'm in a whole new world.
You bring out the best in me.
It's hard to picture you not there,
When you taught me who to be.

Yes, the road ahead gets hard,
When things may only seem rough.
But because you and I try so much,
We'll stay strong and get by tough.

Though problems may lie ahead someday,
And either of us could be right;
I promise to always be by your side,
And I promise my heart, so hold it tight.

And so, each night, beside my bed,
When there's only bright stars to see;
I pray that we may never give up,
And will always remain you and me.

trying to concentrate on my eom.
haha ok obviously not working.

dance is fun but crazy and anniversary is coming up!
exciting! (:
and im like losing my voice but it's not at the sexy range yet. hahahaha

but i have to get down to studying for promos since this wretched school starts like 2 weeeks earlier than everyone one else.

i will decisively blog more next time i hope! (:

i just did not look,
clear, in front of me,
when you were

just there. (:

`better untouched

2006-08-10T23:09:00.000+08:00

I look at him,
And a smile grows in my face.
Just to remember the times,
When he could've been mine.

As he gives me a hug,
While he puts his arms around me.
I remember what I would've gave
To only have a chance with him.

But now I see him,
In a different light.
Yes, he still means the world to me,
But now its a different way.

His friendship means a lot to me,
Although we never had much anything else.
Now I see why God doesn't answer all prayers,
Because some things are left better untouched.
-chloe

i need to not fall sick.

and i need to put on a brave face
cos that's what i do everyday.

`sneeze

2006-08-10T20:26:00.000+08:00

i think ive got flu just that i wont sneeze as glam-ly as this. ):

tuesday:

the walk was HOT.
and then lunch at lido again with the class.
went off to meet joel where we tried to do as many things as we could but accomplished none because it simply just wasn't a day for shopping.
im amazed too.
watched click which was so sad at some point.
but the cinema was amazing. we watched at the cathay and we were at cinema 1(the grand cathay)
wow it's like AMAZING.
i think it's pretty.
(:

wednesday:

went blading and uh fell!
hahaha sorry for pulling you down too.

today:

went to study at the library with toktok and thong and joel.
of which thong and toktok were like ONE HOUR LATE.
(dont even bother to ask what they were doing!)
so i did my geog term paper. spent the entire day doing it and trying to find a comfortable position in the chair.
went to island creamery and had my MUDPIE! (:

and now i have to do the econs project and i think im falling sick cos all the symptoms are there.
blocked nose, sore throat red face and eyes.

oh which reminds me i have an eyelid infection(what's that!)
anyway there's like this bump on my eyelid which on wed morning made my right eye look like twice as big as my left.
which obviously means i cant wear contacts!
and tmr including.
which also means that my classmates are going to mock me! ):

toktok showed me sth today(i cant really rmb):

dont look at the mirror it tells you lies.
look at your reflection through my eyes instead.
you're beautiful. (:

ok i think she's trying to say im fat and ugly.
nvm i love you! (:

`im tired of broken hearts

2006-08-06T20:19:00.000+08:00

Could you be the one for me?
Could you be my find?
Could it be, after all this time,
Fate is going to be kind?

Could you be the one for me,
The one to help me forget
The man that broke my heart, my soul
The man that haunts me yet?

You tell me that I'm beautiful
Something I've never heard
But the one still lives here in my mind
That couldn't spare a kind word

It's going to be hard to forget
And pick up the pieces he left
Could you be the one to teach
How to love again and forget?

Could you be the one to come
And mend my broken heart?
Are you willing to piece together
What another broke apart?

It won't be an easy job, you see
My road has been long and rough
And the heart that was once so soft
Is now shut, locked, and tough

But I can feel my heart open again
It's opening for you
Just come in, and love me back
That's all you have to do

I must ask you one small thing
Before we kiss and part
Please be nice and kind to me
I'm tired of broken hearts.

how terribly apt. (:
this is one of my favourite poems yet and ive decided to post it again. (:

I CUT MY HAIR AGAIN! (:
it's like a sudden urge and i couldn't take the annoying beat against my back when i run anymore.
yes i do run.
anyway she cut the fringe so it's like really short.
hmm......... it's weird.
but my haircuts now are not as diastrous as before
so thank God for small mercies! (:

suddenly realised today how near the promos are
but haven't done any work the entire weekend as usual.
with pw and promos(sigh)
and ANNIVERSARY! (: and youth choir perforamnce for 27th august.
plus dance on 27th too. (:
so many events.
well good cos i desperately need to lose weight.
eg a skirt that needed a belt now needs it no more. ): ): ): ):

IM GOING TO WAKE UP TMR MORNING AND RUN, SERIOUSLY.
like get down to it.
but my mom says that me and running is like my dad and washing cars.
it's like this weird phenomenon that everytime my dad washes the car, it rains.
SIGH.
see what i mean??

anyway had a family dinner today.
it's like some ritual every sunday.
we usually have sushi but today dad/mom felt like eating pizza.
SIGH bad mistake.
in short the service sucked and my dad was so pissed he scolded the manager.
we ordered like some stuff.
so while checking the receipt, the breadsticks was the wrong kind.
so i informed the waitress who simply nodded and told the cooks without changing it on the receipt(as you see this will cause a lot of problems later)
then we waited and waited and waited for like 15 mins before the breadsticks came.
omg you know why?? cos they're so preoccupied with takeaways and home delivery!
seriously no need to wonder pizzza hut has a long queue! it's not cos it's popular! it's cos it's like SO FREAKING SLOW!
then we waited for like damn long and we were so annoyed so my dad said like super annoyed-ly to the waitress that our orders were not here.
and she took one look at the receipt told the cooks sth and came back with the WRONG BREADSTICKS! omg!
firstly it was the wrong one and we already received the order.
simply disgusting!
then we waited another 20 mins MY DAD WAS SO PISSED HE SCOLDED THE MANAGER.
and the hawaiian came!
this is such a joke cos my dad's vegetarian.
and he was so so so pissed he was prepared to blow up i think.
then the waitress told us that the person who took our order said that she told us the waiting time(NO SHE DIDN'T??) and that we would have to wait half an hour to one hour from the order time.
and true enough it came at one hour.
perfect my dad was so so so pissed.

as usual i think my dad has some affinity with pizza hut.

there was one home delivery where the pizza was uncooked and he called the manager who just like offered a new pizza.
omg my dad got so pissed and he was like 'im not hard up for your pizzas!'
and he drove all the way down to the outlet, scolded the manager who pissed him even more and he called up the regional manager, who is in charge or the entire south east asia and scolded him.
hahah damn scary la.

ok bye im gonna bathe!

`serene

2006-08-05T21:53:00.000+08:00

i like this picture. (:

had church today and told tr cheng kee about the horrible week i had.
and she gave me new perspective.
there's no point really, in forcing things i cant change.

you know what they say about nathan being lowest ranking?
she said that in schools, they grade the teachers and nathan would be someone they call a degrader.
so he likes to annoy people just to see them provoked.
and he likes to put them down.
CHEAP THRILLS!
so she said i should just leave him alone.
to learn how to be still and really find that calmness(and read psalm 37)

and on the matter of the thing.
to not be so caught up with it all and be so preoccupied with it.
learning that 'all things work for the good of those who love Him.'
and to learn not to recoil in disgust and fear in all these and to really trust.

and more importantly, as in line with today's message that perhaps this trial that im put through is like a big WAKE UP call from God since ive been ignoring his nudging.
that seriously ive been drifting away since youth conference last year.

but resting in the knowledge that God is ALWAYS there for me and that he wont give me a trial too huge that i wont be able to take it.
that He would grant me the stillness, the wisdom, the strength, the peace and perhaps one day the joy.
IF i seek Him and and really pray for it.

you know i was telling her about how much i really wanted things to be the way they were but it cant and i know it since i have the home tutor from hell.
so i guess it's really time to trust and perhaps stop leaning on my own strengths and being so stupid as to think i can take it on all on my own.

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

thank God for teachers and really for people who wake me and point me back. (:

when im ready, i'll apologize and mean it.

`repentance

2006-08-04T23:34:00.000+08:00

my life used to be idyllic till it was broken.

today we sat at burger king and debated over existence.
and from the faces of pris and weiying i think we're quite _____.
therefore PLAN repentance is in action.

zac qazz and i trying(!) to repent.

i had nothing against you till the joke became a reality and somehow in real life, it's not funny anymore.
my stand has not changed but i wont tell you how i feel since aww everyone's oh so sad and noble but in truth no one has enough courage.

STILL NOT BY CHOICE DONT GLOAT.

Angel Teardrops.

My guardian angel, once careless and free,
flew into the clouds and lost touch with me.
Her tears were cold and wet, falling on my face.
Her smile had left us without a trace.

Her angelic lips quivered, frozen and scared,
I felt rain clouds visiting, and had to prepare.
I knew that angels, often content,
were very special presents that God had sent.

To see one so sad,
so afraid,
so alone,
had made me weep while the cold winds had blown.

Her wings lost feathers,
comforting and soft,
falling from the stars,
floating aloft.

Her pain was felt throughout the land,
to feel true misery is impossible to stand.
I prayed so that when her hurting stops,
I'll be able to taste the angel's teardrops.
-Kathleen Sheppard

and words alone are never enough.

if im nice on the surface, im a hypocrite.
if im unkind, im a bitch.

WOW.
BRILLANT.

`too much

2006-08-03T23:17:00.000+08:00

now go away.

im an emokid.

`more pics.

2006-08-03T23:07:00.000+08:00

WHY I HAVE SO MUCH FUN WITH THEM.
AND WHY NATHAN'S JEALOUS.

i'll miss doing dumb stuff like this with qazz.

FUN IS A RELATIVE CONCEPT.
we like doing this.

everywhere we go. (:

in anything. (:

sigh

`pics

2006-08-03T22:59:00.000+08:00

OH HAPPY TIMES.

me and qazz.

me and zac.

this is us all over. ):

why we have fun in class.

think this is possible with anyone else????
no.

`nathan

2006-08-03T22:29:00.000+08:00

wow i just typed a super long entry and it's gone!!
brillant.

my life
is
just
so
great
now.

im sitting with the girl from like the i'll stick with you forever hell.
ive got the home tutor from hell.

why?

saturday: parent teacher meeting

" i only want the best for your child"

oh wow really?
hmm let me think how.
by teaching us econs really well?
giving like really constructive comments for our pw?
by being biased against zac qazz and me?
by blaming our bad results on class outings??
by lying to our parents??
by changing our places?
by respecting us as PRIMARY SCHOOL KIDS??
oh or having double standards for the LHS and RHS?

for example, the one from the other side and just float SLOWLY TO CLASS WITH A SMILE WITH THE EERIE SMILE WHILE EVERYONE WAITS PATIENTLY/IMPATIENTLY and oh guess what?
she gets away hmm scot free?
and while we hmm get detention, scoldings uh and a confrontation.
oh wow totally fair.
and hmm "i dont practise favouritsm"
hahahahaha this home tutor.
wowee real comedian.
(but lace we love you)

oh and on the subject of the ONE.
hmm please if you read this dont follow me, i dont let me see how i should put this.
i dont like hanging out with you.
well you talk to me in class and hmm i get scolded???
not a great start is it?
so please stop following me around i know i need to run and lose weight but it's ok i want my friends to help me only.
and stop asking me questions, the answer will always be 'i dont know ask _____(fill in name of choice)'
i dont sit beside you by choice so thank you very much.

today zac qazz and i decided to try and repent.
wrote an i-love-you(sincere/insincere) letter to nathan and we're going to make great effort to talk to my new partner who replaced zac.
NO ONE CAN REPLACE ZAC AS A SIT BESIDE PARTNER.
YOU ASKING LIKE 9407186087568 QUESTIONS MAKES NO DIFFERENCE.
i will not like you more perhaps you will drop lower please redeem something yourself and save it ok.
AND NO ONE CAN REPLACE QAZZ.
); ): ): ):

i know nathan's going to change qazz and make me like some loner but i will survive i will not talk(what he wants) but it will not make me respect him.
OH PUH-LEASE WAKE UP.
he doesn't deserve any.
BURN!!!

the previous entry was so much more angst.
scream your heart out.

`back row clique

2006-08-03T22:02:00.000+08:00

WE ARE THE BACK ROW CLIQUE!
I LOVE YOU GUYS TO THE MOON AND ROUND THE EARTH TEN THPOUSAND TIMES!
EVEN THOUGH THE !*!^*%*#!%&%&#%&! NATHAN WANTS TO SEPARATE US WE WILL NOT BOW DOWN TO HIS EVILNESS.
BURN!!! BURN!!!!

ive been so full of anger it's amazing.
nathan has managed to make me so pissed that i cry out of frustration.
TOTALLY AMAZING MAN THIS NATHAN.
as tr cheng kee puts it simply HE SHOULD BE SACKED.
not really SENT TO EXILE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
omg omg omg omg.

saturday was the ptm(parent tacher meeting) where he tried to lie to my parents.
"what i want is the best for your child"
hahaha best joke ive heard all year.
HE IS ONLY FREAKING CONCERNED ABOUT HIMSELF.

and he talked about class outing.
"two times a week??? that's why you'll fail your mid years"
omg now eating lunch is a crime too.
ah wonderful!

anyway my mom found him boring my dad dislikes him from the start even before talking to him and dont worry the i-hate-nathan club is GROWING!

in short the whole weeek was BURNING!!!!!
and OMG HIS GREATEST ATROCITY IS TO CHANGE ZAC'S PLACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NOW THANKS TO HIM IM SITTING WITH ABIGAIL.
omg omg omg omg.
like thanks totally.
ok this is like a total fulfilment of murphy's law.
wow no wonder toktok always said my life's full of drama.
omg omg omg omg.
she's like a i dont give up im gonna stick with you forever and ever girl.
even when zac and i tried to escape.
which is a story that im so tired of repeating.

AND HE WANTS TO CHANGE QAZZ'S PLACE AS WELL!!!!
i hate nathan i hate nathan BURN BURN.

and if you read this, i do not want to talk to you, please dont ask me questions or talk to me.
SINCE WHEN YOU TALKED TO ME NATHAN SCOLDED ME???
OMG AND ASKED ME TO BE LIKE YOU?????
and dont smile at me.
it's ok i dont need it or neither will i fall for it nor will i do the crap that you dont want to do.

and if you're so noble why dont you change place with me smart asses.
if you dont have a solution just shut up ok.

and today qazz zac and i were late for class.
nathan kicked a big fuss scolded us and i got sooooo pissed cos he's like how freaking biased.
SHE can hold the key and freaking float to class smiling(prob the only time anyone ever waits for her) while everyone waits.
oh and she goes hmm SCOT FREE?
and we have to do detention???
woweee.

the whole story is too long and frustrating to narrate.
and since lace was late and being nathan's fav student she got let off and us too.
we love lace. (:

SO THERE YOU HAVE IT.

oh i just cant wait for nathan to change qazz's place and destroy my life more.

oh and by the way my mom thinks all this is SO funny!
and my dad said that if nathan calls he's gonna ask nathan to do sth better with his life!
GOOD GOOD BURN BURN!!!

yes excellent im so so so so so pissed.
now my dad realises why i want econs tution(hahaha). good one mr nathan brillant.

ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

DIE DIE BURN BURN.
omg he's driving me crazy and _____ too.
my mom thinks that by the end of this year i'll need therapy.

MY LIFE WAS SIMPLE.

`conversation

2006-07-25T23:10:00.000+08:00

*sy perfection is like chivalry; non-existent. says:
OMG TODAY SOME GIRL THOUGHT QAZZ AND I ARE TGT

joel. the blob. says:
tml you can go to schl and sing the song MISUNDERSTOOD

sigh in england in 1600s singing and dancing in public is liable for the death sentence.
because it's equivalent to pornography.
plus cjc is conservative junior college such atrocities are not allowed.

I HAVE DONE............... NOTHING.

`life

2006-07-25T21:05:00.000+08:00

are you tired of chasing pretty rainbows?
are you tired of spinning round and round?

i realised that if i dont blog everyday, the lil things in life will be lost.
like the lil things we laugh about.

had pw meeting at my house ytd where they were baking.
hahaha it was extremely fun and i think my parents overfed everyone as usual.

anyway school today was soooooooo.... disgusting.
nathan was moodswinging like crazy.
and natasha(i think that's her name) in my chem class thinks QAZIM AND I ARE TGT.
omg!!!!! that's like being lesbian!
ok anyway amy and becky were saying ytd that their friends ask if zac and i are tgt.
gosh these ppl in cj just have no life.
all these gossips!

and once again i have to moan and whine about pw namely EOM. disgusting disgusting!!!
ok haha as you can see school has been terribly enriching lately.
dont know what i'll do without zac and qazz as my bodyguards.
love you guys! (:

oh i haven't been uploading lately!
will TRY to do so soon. (:

everytime i walk out of the door,
i see him dying a little more inside.

`joel's house

2006-07-22T12:42:00.000+08:00

hello im at joel's house now.
hahaha he's helping me with my phone. now im so tech savvy and just discovered another ten thousand functions in my phone.
oh for all the dummies there my phone is the E900. (: (:
it's like super nice.
oh and it got 4/5 stars in the straits times thing.

ytd lee said that hilary duff died in a car crash.
ok like wow is it true??

we celebrated thong's birthday ytd.
we being lee toktok,thong's gf; not my best friend cos thong's possesive ): and me.
we had so much fun cos it was thong's FIRST birthday.
HAPPY ONE YEAR THONG!

MERE WORDS

I searched among the card displays,
To see if I could find,
A little something that would say
Just what was on my mind.

However there was not a one,
That captured it just right,
For no one else can understand
Just what I'd like to write.

I even find it difficult
To try to write it down,
For how do I portray to you,
The love that I have known?

I close my eyes and what I see,
Is someone I adore;
A person who is beautiful,
Right down into their soul.

Mere words cannot describe
The many qualities you show,
The love and caring nature that
You share with those who know.

Your kind and gentle temperament,
Your sweet angelic smile,
Your softly spoken sentiments,
That reach across the miles.

Your smile and laugh that sparkle with
The softness of your sighs,
The way your face lights up a room ...
That twinkle in your eye.

The loving gestures through the years,
That quickly come to mind,
For always you've a gentle word
To calm and soothe I find.

I struggle and I search to try
To find some words anew ...
And yet I cannot capture
All the things that make you you.

I shall therefore, be satisfied
That you must simply know,
Just how I feel about you,
For with words I cannot show.
-Kit McCallum

TOKTOK YOU'LL ALWAYS BE MY BEST FRIEND(i hope you wont forget me) EVEN THOUGH YOU'RE WITH THONG.
I LOVE YOU.

`racial harmony

2006-07-20T22:26:00.000+08:00

wow haven't updated for like ten thousand years.

ok ive got a new phone! (:
i like i like.

and i watched pirates twice and i cant rmb what else i did this week except spend a lot of money and celebrated racial harmony with the class which was so bonded today.
(will update the pics soon!)

and i got a new cover for my phone. (: (:

ok so much sales so lil money.
the topshop wallet is gone.
AS USUAL. life sucks this way.

ok bye i need to do my stupid geog and pw i hate ~~eom~~ pw. AND GEOG.

`friends?

2006-07-15T21:51:00.000+08:00

I was cold and hurting
lost out in the night
wandering and searching
for heaven's light

I saw the night sky clearing
when you spread your rainbow wings
But little did I know
what joy you would bring

From that moment on
a friendship did start
you kissed away my tears
and sheltered my heart

I bless the day God
sent him from above
But then I grew fearful
for I had fallen in love

I told you this feeling
and what did you say?
You said you liked our friendship
and that's how it would stay

I cried for a friendship I thought I lost
But then felt your warm, gentle hand
You then whispered in my ear
that by my side you'll forever stand
-Kathleen Sheppard

another pretty poem. (:

haha for the benefit of the doubt these are just stuff i like they dont mean anything.
not all the lines anyway.

OK I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT.

`ice cream

2006-07-14T21:17:00.000+08:00

I stare at you across the room
yet you are not there.

thursday:

went to watch pirates with toktok thong and joel.
it was quite nice but freaking 2 and a half hours!
and there's gonna be a no 3 cos when the show ended it was like " what it ended??"
oh and WE SAW KENNETH!
HAHAHA KENNETH ALWAYS BRIGHTENS UP MY DAY.
when he came in the cinema was like half lit and we didn't notice him cos it was like this huge group of sa ppl.
then joel spotted him!
and i shouted across the entire cinema(hahaha no one could see me)
and he was damn shocked so joel and i started waving madly and annoyed everyone behind.
hahahaha and toktok and thong just wanted to curl up and die.
so joel called him and i was shouting into the phone that i love him hahahaha
damn funny.
a repeat happened after the show across the entire 7th floor.
omg hahahaha.

friday:

we ponned training(!) again.
haha today the guys were mocking bel's bag "oh you can catch fish with this net"
BOYS HAVE NO TASTE!
george said this about my bag "omg you paid 50 bucks for this plastic bag???"
and he sounded sooooooooo incredulous.
ROAR.
anyway we went to taka food fest! (:
hahahah then shopping which the boys just stood outside(boring twerps)
oh i saw a pair of shorts i want from fox and my topshop skirt.
and the red topshop wallet which the interior reminds me of the mango one.
sigh so much stuff so lil money. ):

Over For Now.

I knew someday it would have to end
I knew eventually I would have to go back to calling you friend
It's killing me that now that day has come
If it's for the best then where is this pain from
I know deep inside that this is what I had to do
but it's breaking my heart to walk away from you
I'm trying my best to appear strong
but it's hard when part of me says that in your arms is where I belong
I still love you with all my heart
that's not going to change even though we're apart

There are so many of our special times I'm going to miss
All the words I ever said or wrote still hold true
But for now from a distance is where I'll be loving you
I think you need me as a friend to help you through
because there are things I can't control that are hurting you
We both have issues no one knows of
neither of us had the strength to be true to our love
Maybe we will be together again if it was meant to be
but for now please don't stop loving me
Even though I'm not your girlfriend I'll still be here
With a shoulder to cry on or a sympathetic ear
The story of love can be quicker than the blink of an eye
But our story won't be over until the day that we die
-Lesley W.

aww ok bye!

`love poems

2006-07-12T20:18:00.000+08:00

So soft
the brief touch of your lips
on my cheek.

Was I almost intruding?

"Look after yourself "
should have been
"I love you!"

Then the Jumbo flew over
my head
and I shouted my love
above the roar
and thundering thrust

. . . as if you'd hear.

Through the clouds in my eyes
I watched you fly away
and wished I'd been born with wings.
-Anthony West

I HATE ABHOR GOODBYES TO PEOPLE I LOVE.
it's depressing really when suddenly you realise they're not there
and you've been convincing yourself it's not true till the moment the plane flies above your head
sigh

today we ponned TRAINING(it's a joke to even call it that) and went out.
jas joined us.
so FIRST we went to taka food fest! hahahaha
and ate the extremely addictive ice cream. (:

trained down to citylink to change my paul frank bag which spoiled!!
ok there was like a lil tear at the side.
and bel bought a new bag.
oh i got my topshop earrings! (:

and they kept looking at bikinis cos both of them are so hot and i felt extremely faaat.
ok despite that we went to candy empire!
(: (:

ok i miss going out with the crescent people.

and lovelle it's good to know that _________________. (:
thanks for changing my perspective.
LOVE YOU. (:

i have a new found liking for emo poems like the one below.
i especially like this one. (: (:

Could you be the one for me?
Could you be my find?
Could it be, after all this time,
Fate is going to be kind?

Could you be the one for me,
The one to help me forget
The man that broke my heart, my soul
The man that haunts me yet?

You tell me that I'm beautiful
Something I've never heard
But the one still lives here in my mind
That couldn't spare a kind word

It's going to be hard to forget
And pick up the pieces he left
Could you be the one to teach
How to love again and forget?

Could you be the one to come
And mend my broken heart?
Are you willing to piece together
What another broke apart?

It won't be an easy job, you see
My road has been long and rough
And the heart that was once so soft
Is now shut, locked, and tough

But I can feel my heart open again
It's opening for you
Just come in, and love me back
That's all you have to do

I must ask you one small thing
Before we kiss and part
Please be nice and kind to me
I'm tired of broken hearts

how terribly apt.

`memories

2006-07-11T00:52:00.000+08:00

i chased you round in memories.

`bored

2006-07-11T00:07:00.000+08:00

W H O . W A S . T H E . L A S T . P E R S O N . T H A T?

1. You hung out with? THE COOL CLIQUE
2. Saw you cry: no one
3. Went to the movies with you? classmates i have no life
4. You went to the mall with? STILL classmates(omg)
5. You went to dinner with? family
6. You talked on the phone to? zac
7. Said 'I love you' to you and really meant it? toktok
8. Made you laugh? QAZZ HAHAHAHA

W O U L D . Y O U . R A T H E R?

1. Pierce your nose or tongue? nose
2. Be serious or be funny? SERIOUS
3. Drink whole or skim milk? skim
4. Die in a fire or drown? drown
5. Spend time with your parents or enemies? parents??

D O . Y O U . P R E F E R. .

1. Flowers or candy? flowers
2. Gray or black? gray
3. Color or Black and white photos? colour
4. Lust or love? love
5. Sunrise or sunset? Sunset
7. Staying up late or waking up early? late! (:

D O . Y O U . P R E F E R. .

1. Sun or moon? sun.
2. Winter or Fall? fall
3. Left or right? BOTH.
4. 10 acquaintances or having two best friends? Two best friends. (but i have both hahahah)
6. Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice cream? vanilla
7. Vodka or Jack? i dont drink(underaged!)

A B O U T . Y O U!

1. What time is it? 12:20
2. First and middle Name? peh shiyun
3. Nickname(s): manly.. hahaha
4. What is your birth date? 22/09
5. What do you want? TIME MACHINE
6. Where do you want to live? kampung
7. How many kids do you want? 2
8. You want to get married? to?

U N I Q U E !

1. Nervous habit: playing with my buttons
2. you double jointed: what?
3. Can you roll your tongue? yeah
4. Can you raise one eyebrow? no but i caonvince ppl i can
5. Can you cross your eyes? no! yucks.
6. Do you make your bed daily? depends

O T H E R

1. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? twirl.
2. Have you ever eaten scrapple? what's that?
4. How many kinds of cereal are in your cabinet? HONEY STARS
5. What's your favorite beverage? oreo milkshake. (:
6. What's your favorite food? that really depends
7. Do you cook? DOMESTIC GODDESS (go figure)

IN . T H E . L A S T . M O N T H . H A V E . Y O U ?
1. Had a b/f or g/f? no
2. Bought something: yeah
4. Sang: yes
5. Been hugged: Yes
6. Felt stupid: Yes
7. Missed someone: yes
8. Got drunk: underage!
9. Danced crazy: no
10. Gotten your hair cut: no
11. Cried: yes
12. Lied: ah well

height: 160+++
hair color: black/brown
hair length: medium long
Hair style: dumb
shoes size: 4/5
personality: serious
style?: i dont go out

L I F E

How's life? school sucks
What's your mood right now? faaaat
What are you doing as we speak? hating pw
How was your day? just rub it in
What are you doing over the weekend? church (:
What do you want to do with your life? shop
What color is your life? pastel

L O V E L I F E

Have you ever been in love: i think so.
Have you ever had your heart broken? uh i dont know
Have you ever broken someone's heart? mmm not sure
Have you ever fallen for your best friend? toktok????
Are you planning on getting married? maybe
Are you afraid of commitment? stupid question stupid answers

R A N D O M S

One thing sitting next to you: PW work
Something you miss: taka food fest
Do you like the color purple? yeah
How many CDs do you own?not sure
Longest phone conversation: 9 hours
What is your most prized possession? my phone
Who's your closest relative? not sure
If you could go anywhere, where would it be? somewhere other than asia
What is your favorite gift that you have received? im not biased

T H I S O R T H A T S

Pepsi or coke? coke
Tommy boy or black sheep? what!
Saturday or Sunday? Saturday
single or taken? single(this is a dumb quiz)
colored or black and white? coloured
white shoes or black shoes? black
phone or in person? in person

FA V O R I T E

Scar: ?
TV show: the swimming show
movie: any chick flick with qazz
color: pink
sport: swimming
Saying: i hate school hahahha
mall: taka(food fest!)

H A V E Y O U E V E R S

Have you ever been arrested? no
Have you ever fought someone? yeah my sis
Have you ever skinny dipped? no, cellulite in public is unforgivable
Have you ever gone streaking?no
Have you ever done something? HAHAH is this a trick question?
Have you ever bungee jumped? No
Have you ever been on a house boat? No
Have you ever smoked marijuana? no
Have you ever finished an entire jaw breaker? no
Have you ever wanted someone so bad it hurts? maybe

-Maybe I...should not be so serious
-I love...ice cream
-I don't understand...love
-I lost...my mind
-People would say/have said that I... sleep too much
-Love is...difficult to understand
-Somewhere, someone is... dying
-I will always... smile
-Forever is...unrealistic
-I never want to... smoke
-When I wake up in the morning I... want to sleep somemore
-life is full of... weirdos
-My past is incredibly... weird
-I get annoyed when... people are LATE
-Parties are for... nerds
-My dog is... non existent
-My cat... is meant to be hated i dont have one
-Kisses are the worst when...
-Tomorrow I'm going to... school(i have no life)
-I really want... to have a time machine
-I have low tolerance for people who... are LATE
-If I had a million dollars... i would do a million things hahaha so wise
-If you could kiss someone it would be... liam my husband

TODAY, HAVE YOU...

1. Had sex: No
2. Bought something: yes
3. Gotten sick: yes
4. Sang: yes
5. Been kissed: no
6. Ate something: yes
7. Felt stupid: yes
8. Missed someone: yes

HAVE YOU EVER...
1. Said "I Love You"? yeah
2. Got in a fight with your pet: like no??
3. Been to New York? no
4. Been to Mexico: yes
5. Been to Canada: yes

RANDOMNESS
1. What book are you reading?: tuesdays with morris
2. Future KIDS name: ethan! tracy! (:
3. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: sinus is scary
4. What's under your bed: nothing??

QUESTIONS...
1. Fav sport(s): swimming
2. Location: room
3. Piercing/Tattoos: ears
4. Are you afraid of the dark?: after a scary movie yes
5. What are you most worried about right now? how to wake up tmr
6. Where do you want to get married? think about it only when you're there
7. Who do you really hate: cellulite is a living being
8. Do you have a job? being nathan's daughter
9. Do you like being around people: depends
10. Have u ever liked someone that u had no chance with: HAHHAHAH
11. Have you ever cried: yes
12. Are you lonely right now: NO NO NO (this quiz is so demoralizing!!hahaha)
13. Song that's stuck in your head: everywhere
14. Played strip poker: eh?
15. Been drunk for more than 2 days straight: UNDERAGED!
16. Done an all-nighter: like not sleep? yeah
17. Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: HAHAHHAHAH yeah
18. What people in this world make you the happiest? oh please.

bye bye i hate pw.
it makes me take weird quizzes.

`paul frank!

2006-07-10T20:23:00.000+08:00

GOT MY PAUL FRANK BAG! (:

cant really rmb much of what happened last week
terribly uneventful i guess.

OK FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE, I TRIED TO WAKE UP TO WATCH SOCCER.
I WOKE UP! -beams
ok but getting out of bed at all is another matter entirely.
anyhow the effort was worth the credits ok.

OH HAVE I MENTIONED THAT I LOVE X874927497 THE TAKA FOOD FEST?? (:
went for it ever since it opened like every single day please.
to try the ice cream. (: (: (:
ok not try eat and dragged toktok and the clique there.
it's like so freaking good but they're only staying till sun!!!
omg my life will be so meaningless without it.

all i want to do is just eat that and grow faaaat.

oh pe's back in full force im lagging i know cos i felt tired in the mere 3 rounds of circuit training which is what an entire hol without exercise does to you.
and i have evening pe tmr.
joy oh joy.

OK I HATE PW BUT SOMEBODY'S GOTTA DO IT.

`someone else's star

2006-07-03T12:08:00.000+08:00

Everywhere I look
It's lovers that I see
Seems like everyone's in love
With everyone but me

EMO.

disclaimer:did not take pictures the last few days. im not a cam whore
that's a common misconseption.

friday

ate at manhattan fish market.
it's really like a cheaper fish and co but nice nonetheless.(:
bought my giraffe shirt! and gazed more at my paul frank bag.
then we trooped down to marina square to watch just my luck.
ok i like that show. (:
shopped for presents and saw 2 new shirts that i wanna get! (:
THEN WE DRANK THE MILK CHOCOLATE LATTE FROM GODIVA.
wow. (:
im gonna try the white choc raspberry and dark choc decadence soon.

saturday

met qazz. was later than him for once.
walked around for cheap and free food(the effects of our classmates)
BOUGHT MY ELMO BOTTLE. (:
ok then went to school.
for syf which was a complete waste of time and not worth mentioning AT ALL.
the only highlight was that i got subway for dinner.
(ps not provided by the school)

sunday

normal church stuff then clarice's bbq.
(: it was fun and talked a lot more than we do in church.
hahaha her new room is really nice and realised how much we missed her.
she played the video we made for her and cried again (even though she doesn't wanna admit it!)
it was nice. (:

class outing today whittled down to nearly clique outing again.
qazz is not pissed off i swear.
and we have the most bonded class on earth.
hahahaha thanks aaron for your empty motivational talks!

`clique outing

2006-06-30T09:21:00.000+08:00

IT IS FINALLY OVER.
ok not that it's a big event since i was all prepared for the end since uh last year.
oh and geog was done with sec 4 knowledge and ss.
congratulations to me.

BUT in class spirit we uh celebrated it as a class.
by having lunch at lido with long tables.

then half of them left without saying goodbye.
hahaha qazz your class bonding damn successful la.

so it was down to crystal qazz kev kai and me.
wow 16 to 5.
excellent.

when we were at lido we saw japs/koreans.
their identity remains unknown.
oh pretty boy fell in love with some of them.
so qazz and i decided to crash their phototaking session.
ran right behind them and MISSED it.
we were so embarassed that we ran one round(sporty i know) and tried again.
AND MISSED.
hahaha but it was damn fun and we were coming up with brillant ideas that they would film a ghost story about the blue ghosts who appear behind photos.

so we were waiting for carrie to finish her cl B so we can watch scary movie 4 so we walked around and went to wheelock to stare at nice cakes.
qazz was staring at pierre png who was wearing an awful shirt.
and he delighted in shocking the kev and kai with outrageous bags.

IT OK QAZZ IM OPEN MINDED.
i think you look great with tote bags.
besides, you're a guy-bung.
guy trying to be a girl trying to be a guy. (:

and at borders qazz was such a paedo!
he tried to seduce a baby that couldn't even walk!

OH AND I GOT MARRIED THERE! (:
omg omg omg he's so freaking cute esp when he blushes.
he's 5 years old.
heyy LOVE KNOWS NO BOUNDARIES OK.
and he married me.(im a new age girl i asked him to)
he's called liam(like william without the wil)
and he just moved here from US 2 days ago will stay here for 5 years.
his birthday is on the 19 of feb.
has a 1 year old brother, fyn, whom he is shopping for a book for to read to him at night.
so sweet right.
and crystal wants to marry the brother.
i even know where he stays.
omgomg liam is so cute.
AND HE GAVE ME A HUG!!! MADE MY DAY TOTALLY. (: (: (:
oh and i have his email add!
and he's smart and can read and write!
AND HE SANG AND DANCE FOR ME. (:
i love talented boys.
and i took a pic with him.
(i'll post it up when qazz sends it to me)

ok then carrie came and we watched scary movie 4
it's retarded funny.
and it had A LOT of sexual connotations.
and the 4 girls(crystal carrie QAZZ and me) screamed at one part.
like shocked ok not scared.

then kia and kev left so there were just the 4 girls who had a girls night out.
so much fun. (: (:
yay clique outings rocks my socks. (:

THIS IS THE PHONE I WANT.
im quite sure i think.

Features

- 1.3 Megapixel rotating camera with 4x digital zoom
- 73MB user memory
- Exetrnal memory slot
- Bluetooth & PictBridge printing
- 2.12" 262k colour QVGA TFT
-LCD screen
- Direct TV output
- Document viewer (MS Word, Excel, Powerpoint, TXT, PDF, HTML and JPEG files)
- Music Player (MP3, AAC, AAC+) with digital power amp and dual speakers
- Video recording and messaging
- Personal organiser (Email client, to-do-list, vCard, vCalendar, alarm clock, SYncML, voice memo, calculator, currency converter)
- Connectivity
- Bluetooth 2 (A2DP / AVRCP / BPP), USB, SyncML DS, MMS, Email, Java, WAP 2.0
- Photo and video caller ID
- 1,000 phonebook entries

i dont know what most of it means but it sounds good doesn't it?
plus it can fit into my wallet.

OH i saw this super nice giraffe shirt at fox ytd.
im gonna get it!
and the godiva milkshake.
wow exciting.

ok bye!

`new skin

2006-06-28T18:34:00.000+08:00

HIHI IVE CHANGED MY BLOGSKIN.
my mom votes for this one cos she thinks it looks much nicer and fits me more blah blah.

ANYWAY I HATE HATE HATE THE TAGBOARD.
SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME HOW TO MAKE IT TRANSPARENT.
IT STICKS OUT LIKE A SORE THUMB AND MAKES MY BLOG IMPERFECT!
ROARRRRRRRR.
ok im being very emo here.

anyway i had to do so much work on this skin be grateful all you ingrates.
it was like this! at first!
and is you scroll to the right there are this blinking weird things( in the old one) and this jumping thing on the posts
and ah lianzXzX scribbled all over it.

bye bye i'll improve it soon.
i'll love you forever if you help me with my tagboard.

`brian

2006-06-28T16:06:00.000+08:00

IM BLOGGING ABOUT BRIAN AGAIN.
see brian im your true friend!

ok i told him i love him very much and he doesn't believe me cos i didn't link him.
NOW I DID. hah. (:
anyway he's coming up with a great plan to get all the girls smitten with him by talking differently(ie very civilised) in his blog.
BEWARE OF HIM HE'S DANGEROUS.

HAHAHA everyone this is brian. (:
he's freaking tall this picture is deceiving just like his blog!
he is crazy but he makes me laugh so i like him.
now see, i made a public declaration. (:

anyway EVERYONE in this entire universe is having fun while im ~~mugging~~ supposed to be mugging for my geog.
ok actually i haven't even read it yet so i think i'll be top three with qazim and lace and carrie.

MATHS TODAY WAS CRAP.
like i studied curve sketching and i still dont know how to do??
this sucks.

and current affairs was a complete waste of time.
i have no knowledge of anything so i just put any alphabet that makes me happy.
all the BOYS and certain girls were so happy about the world cup questions BUT i didn't even know saudi arabia was part of asia???
and i thought that japan and korea were the only asian teams in the world cup.
hahahaha this is such a joke
and i was contemplating within germany, spain and france for the place where world cup is held.
haha OF COURSE i got it right(i know what you're thinking)

i think i should just stick to studying hard for promos cos my mids are indescribable.

oh im addicted to o2 jam.
omg it's so so so so so FUN X928749198713

bye all you party poopers o2 jam is my life.

I LOVE YOU BRAIN.

ps: CLARICE'S BACK! (: (: (:

`mids

2006-06-27T17:29:00.000+08:00

the reason why we dont need men.

two more papers to go: maths and geog
both of which i will fail
cos i suck at maths and i didn't study for geog.

i really should be revising for my maths now BUT(there's always a but) im mood-less.
should stop not studying just because i dont feel like it.
-frowns

ok anyway the mango purse is gone. ):
yeah life sucks tell me about it.

but mom bought me some roxy one that's ALMOST as nice but..
that's for one's own discretion.
and havaianas slippers.
and shirts. (:

There was nothing to say
the day she left
just filled a suitcase full of regrets
I held a taxi in the rain
looking for someplace to ease the pain

Then like an answered prayer
I turned around and found u there
you really know where to start
fixing a broken heart
you really know what to do
your emotional tools can cure any fool
whose dreams have fallen apart
fixing a broken heart.

just decided to post part of a song that fits the picture.
quite like this song actually.

i want these days to fly past.

TRUST ME

IM A GIRL

`painted nails

2006-06-20T21:10:00.000+08:00

my heart says yes but my head says no.

TODAY, (after school) I WENT TO MANGO.
AND IT WAS CLOSED.
IN PREPARATION FOR THE SALE.
so it'll be closed to me tmr as well cos it's for vips only.
SO I CAN ONLY GO ON THURS.
THEN WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN TO MY STUDY PLAN.
SIGH
LIFE SUCKS.

i think it's going to be out of stock.
what am i going to do with my life now.

I THINK IT'S SERIOUSLY TIME TO GET DOWN AND STUDY.
sigh but i have people lining up just waiting to be my facils.
that's what friends are for.
sigh

im depressed.
plus i cant study.

and i had to spoil it all by saying something stupid like i love you.

`retained

2006-06-18T21:52:00.000+08:00

and it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time.

SAY HELLO TO 3 YEARS IN CJC.

`girls night out

2006-06-18T21:17:00.000+08:00

1 peter 3:4
"rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God."

haha that was the challenge.
a rather great one i must say
but girls' night out was good.
i realised how much i miss just being around girls.
(: i think girls in church are special cos you dont have to _______.
i wanna go to an all girls college(ok maybe not)
then again the whole ____ thing was such a big mess.

i think i think i think i think i think i think i should stop being so fickle minded. ):

you know i think it's too late for regrets.
I SHOULD, COULD HAVE DONE SO MUCH MORE.
too late.

ive given up on my maths(did i say that already?)
haven't started on geog(yes EXTREMELY dead i know)
econs only done like the first chap(HAHA THIS IS A JOKE)
chem: OK I DONT KNOW HOW TO DO MOLE CONCEPT(BEAT THAT)

ok and i STILL have chinese.
which i think i should just give up ):

CLARICE COME BACK QUICK. ):

oh my only consolation is that i want to buy this mango purse-like thing.
if it's out of stock....

well

i

think

i

will

just

go

kill

myself.

bye all you sadists.

`og 23

2006-06-15T11:56:00.000+08:00

OG 23 (:

we had an og bbq on tues! (thanks to the great organisational skills of BRIAN and kavee)

we reached at FREAKING ONE PM thanks to malvin's great idea and he was late by the way.
went to jac's place the condo near ac and like played cards and mahjong.
i was being antisocial because brian kept mocking me for going cj???
eg " go with your cj friends forget that you were ever from og 23"
blah blah ):

ok and i turned on kids central where they had the MAGIC SCHOOL BUS! (:
brian thinks i have a deprived childhood.

ok and then we watched video after video and finally we went down to play at the swing.
and thus began the insufferable wait for the catering man.
we waited and waited X987438245894615178.
AND FINALLY HE CAME.

so the usual commotion of starting the fire and the smart man gave them five firestarters only which wasn't enought since the guys wanted to start a campfire or sth i think.
so brian minghao jer and me trekked out to buy more charcoal and firestarters enough to burn down the entire condo.

and thus after another hour or so we got to eat and eat and eat.
omg i think brian ordered enough for like 9847298642 people.
ok then we sat down and talked for donkey years and they started to guess my cca.

actually minghao started guessing at the start of the day but that's not the point.
this was the intense one.
so they went on for about 15 mins to half an hour till kavee finally rmb that he had yuanzu's no and called him.
and the smart guy told them i was in gym=gymnastics.

and they say the rest is history. (: but it was fun despite all of the bullying.

we've got a new tv so big i would think it's for the blind.

AND TOKTOK PLEASE COME BACK SOON. ):
I MISS YOU TO THE ENDS OF THIS EARTH AND BACK. ): ):

bye girl's night out today! (:

`STUDY!

2006-06-12T14:58:00.000+08:00

HELLO I SHOULD REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY BE STUDYING. -frowns

what have i done the entire holiday study-wise:
maths questions that i can count with my hands and not one complete. ):
THAT'S ALL

IM GOING CRAZY I THINK.

ok anyway i watched xmen on sat with the trio.
it's nice we had a mini commotion in the cinema as usual and the guys were mortified.

i just realised my blog takes donkey years to load that's sad.
AND my tagboard is screwed ok not that anyone tags.
bye i need to try to focus.

i also need a lot of sour sweets and i need to slim down
no im not pregnant.

`some baking pics

2006-06-09T20:50:00.000+08:00

hi i bake im a domestic goddess and yes i wore shorts in case you were wondering. (ok i was afraid of that machine i was holding it made loud noises)

i would kill for more. (:
ok maybe not kill.

wednesday:

went out (:
uh got forced to watch the omen. (im suffering from the repurcussions)
went to the GIRAFFE restaurant.
omg if the plates weren't so heavy i'll work there.
they're so free they clean the cutlery on the tables AND they've got a cool revolving fan.
BUT best of all, they've got the COOLEST RESTAURANT NAME EVER.
then we walked and walked and walked and walked.
and met toktok where we got drunk on emotions (:

thursday-today:

went with toktok and xia to the hospital where it was freaking cold.
ok and we were there for ten hours i think.
haha xia said he'll treat us to coffee and toktok and i only realised it like a few hours later that it was free!
ok and i fell like terribly sick and cabbed home
AND I SLEPT FROM 2PM- UH 9AM TODAY! (:
extremely good. (:

OH ZAC IF YOU'RE READING THIS I FOUND THE BUTTERMILK COOKIES RECIPES.
NOW YOU HAVE NO EXCUSE FOR NOT BAKING IT!

ingredients:
3 cups all purpose flour
2 tablespoons sugar
4 teaspoons baking powder
1 teaspoon salt
1 teaspoon baking soda
3/4 cup (1 1/2sticks)
chilled unsalted butter,
cut into 1/4-inch pieces
1 cup buttermilk

preparation:
Preheat oven to 425°F. Whisk flour, sugar, baking powder, salt and baking soda in large bowl to blend. Using fingertips, rub 3/4 cup chilled butter into dry ingredients until mixture resembles coarse meal. Add buttermilk and stir until evenly moistened. Using 1/4 cup dough for each biscuit, drop biscuits onto baking sheet, spacing 2 inches apart. Bake until biscuits are golden brown on top, about 15 minutes. Cool slightly. Serve warm.

(: ok byebye

`shopping with mom

2006-06-07T11:44:00.000+08:00

SHOPPING! (:
went out with my mom ytd AND bought like loads and loads of stuff.

first we went to the skin doc and i saw him for like what max 8 mins??
(we got lost on our way there)
and it was 105 bucks la.
but he's good if he can cure my disgusting hands. (:

ok THEN we went shopping! (:
first up mom donated to some hci guys and i got a pretty turning colourful fan thing! (:

went to borders after that and ive got 6 new books! (: (:
-the screwtape letters
-ps i love you
-if you could see me now
-mirage
-tuesdays with morris
-the five people you meet in heaven.

yay!
then i got my pretty pretty birks! (:

then i kept teasing mom about the ______ incident so she decided to insult me about my peeling skin and ugly tan. -frowns
hahaha then she bought me a bikini.
weird huh.

then she bought me 620g of no nut choc chip cookies. (: (:

ok and helped my sis buy tr elaine's wedding present.
it's super pretttty. (:

ok then i had to stop buying cos it was like freaking heavy to lug around.
hahaha

and i fell sick ytd night.
cos of the super X927491649687324 cold air cons in the shopping centres and the bus.
and getting caught in the rain.
sigh

more shopping today! (:
bye bye

TO ALL FUTURE CHEATS, I KNOW THE OMEN IS A HORROR SHOW OK.
STOP TRYING TO TRICK ME! ):

`ming xia

2006-06-05T20:51:00.000+08:00

hello folks!
~~going out~~ studying with toktok and mingxia today reminds me of disney.

OH XIA DISLOCATED HIS ELBOW so it's in cast now.
it was extremely funny.
and i kept banging into his elbow by accident i think i made him highly traumatisd today.
but toktok and i made it up to him by alternately carrying his bag ok
WOW FIRST TIME I EVER CARRIED STH FOR A GUY.
be very touched alright.

so when he came he wanted a burger BUT this boy is full of illnessES and he has stomach ulcers so he cant like eat a lot of stuff la.
so toktok and i trooped off to cold storage to find stuff to buy for him! exciting grocery shopping.
first up i bought the super duper nice bread roll that is sold at soup spoon and he agreed that it tasted good. (: (:
(ok im not sure if he was being condescending but it's seriously super good)
haha then we bought mcvitties digestive biscuits and cornflakes(he likes it) and apple juice. (:
see we're healthy(i think) and good to eat.

THEN like an hour or less later he started noticing that his fingers were swollen and numb.
so it was quite funny to see him in pain and trying to act tough.
toktok and i kept mocking him!
ok but we cared a lot ok!
like nearly his maid just free labour only.

ok so he got like really really worried so he wanted to go for a check up and stuff.
SO SO TOKTOK AND I BEING REALLY NICE DECIDED TO ACCOMPANY HIM.
so exciting! (:
hahaha i got a free apple they have outdoor toilets(like the zoo!) and we made xia sit in a wheelchair!
toktok honed her nursing skills then. (:
i think ive been really nice today.

then we went to queensway!!!
and toktok and i got two new fbts. (: (: (:

then we went to ikea and xia treated toktok to a hotdog and me to ice cream. (: (:
yes i like the dispenser thing i want it in my house next time!

so it think today's an eventful day. (:
TOKTOK AND I HAD SO MUCH FUN.

tomorrow i have to wake up at FREAKING 730!!!!!!!!!!
OMG haha cos im going to the docs about my eczema thing and my mom smartly booked the appt at 10 am la. ):
BUT im going to buy BIRKS after that! (:
looks like this!
yay!!!! (: (: (: (: (: (:

okok IM PEELING! ):
haha the bad side effects of sunburns beside everyone mocking you.

IM STARTING A LIPOSUCTION FUND.

`cant change the pic

2006-06-04T18:51:00.000+08:00

wanted to change the picture to this but i couldn't.
oh well. ):

BUT I LIKE THE CURRENT PICTURE ANYWAY.
haha my mom's bonkers la.
you know what she said?
'you're such a romantic person i cant imagine you liking this picture.'
UH OK.
never knew i was a romantic.

im afraid that if i fall, i'll never get up again.

`text box

2006-06-04T18:18:00.000+08:00

love, me

i changed the box size!(thanks!)
now you can see the picture without moving it from left to right and left to right! (:
but i think it's a lil weird.

ok my mom thinks im morbid.
cos i want to have wedding songs where people die in them and i like the broken hearted picture.
she thinks it's bad if i put it on my blog. ):
BUT i dont know how to change?
and i dont know what to change to.
sigh

AND AND i dont know how to host pictures.

im seriously going to take up ballet again. (:
now all i have to do is find a good studio. (:

never meant to fall so fast so hard.

`random

2006-06-03T19:28:00.000+08:00

The smile on your face lets me know
that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes
saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says
You'll catch me whenever I fall
You say it best
When you say nothing at all. (: (:

I WANT WANT WANT TO EAT HERE ONE DAY. (:
btw for the dumb clowns it's says GIRAFFE. (: (:

BOND BAY TODAY.
uh i very smartly only put sunblock in front AND now im burnt at the back and on my face. ):
STOP MOCKING ME.

it was fun!
hahaha and chatted much more to the lil ones(i feel old at 17!).
subway lunch was scrumptious. (: (:

mom brought us out for dinner and i drank half my soup before she told me that i put soy sauce and not vinegar in my soup.
sigh she thought it was extremely funny?!?!

my wedding song's mtv.
omg isn't this like the nicest song ever! (: (:
HEARTS X987978643457 (:

sorry about all the lag time people.
haha i'll try not to upload so much stuff.

OK MY MOM SAID THIS SONG IS BAD FOR WEDDING.
BECAUSE SOMEONE DIED IN THE SONG. ): ): ):
ok i want it played at my funeral.

i missed you. ):

//edit

2006-06-02T21:57:00.000+08:00

//edit

this is an edit thanks to daryl who's whining non stop.
FINE YOU DIDN'T CRY.
YOU laughed TILL YOU CRIED.
same end result to me
you STILL cried.

(: shiyun is always correct.

btw daryl i didn't do this edit for you i did it for bel if i bully you her heart will break.
now i cant have that can i? (:

bye twit!

`accident

2006-06-02T21:09:00.000+08:00

It was purely accidental that they meet,
They both would tell you that.

we went to paris and back.

in life it's great knowing someone's there sharing (:

this was absolutely redundant.

WEIRD!
woke up at 6(unintentionally) and only fell asleep again at 730.
finally woke up at 11 to discover i would be late for pw meeting.
when i finally finally reached amy's house i think i just died on her sofa and generally stoned there.

left early(SORRY!) and rushed down to meet bel and daryl.
trooped off to george's house which was really in the middle of some jungle and we had to trek in the super duper super duper hot sun to reach.
AND he thought that the thought of him cooking for us would be uh comforting??
so we got down to study/do maths/undone hmk.
and it was still freaking hot despite the fact that we had two air cons on.
AND WE DISCOVERED THE VERY SMART GUY PUT THE AIRCON ON FAN MODE.
sigh

ok we got really distracted and ordered pizza after which he seranaded us with his fantastic piano playing skills.
and i gave an encore of my one and only amazing song.

bel and i got raped by his jack russell.(he calls it a husky!)
it licks us like non-stop.
the dog needs therapy seriously!
firstly it thinks it's a husky.
secondly it's lesbian.
haha but the best part was it biting george's ass. hahahaha

and daryl cried(emokid!) at george's grandma scolding the maid.
omg he's mean to the maid.
he cant rmb the maid's name so he calls her bryani.
haha and he just shouts any malay name and she'll answer!

I read a note my grandma wrote back in nineteen twenty-three.
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me.
he said,"boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but i loved your grandma so."

We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together.
Get married in the first town we came to, and live forever.
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet, instead
Of her, i found this letter, and this is what it said:

If you get there before i do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long i'll be.
But i'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till i see you again,
I'll be loving you.
love, me.

I read those words just hours before my grandma passed away,
In the doorway of a church where me and grandpa stopped to pray.
I know i'd never seen him cry in all my fifteen years;
But as he said these words to her, his eyes filled up with tears.

If you get there before i do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long i'll be.
But i'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till i see you again,
I'll be loving you.
love, me.

Between now and then, till i see you again,
I'll be loving you.
love, me.

OMG I LOVE LOVE LOVE THIS SONG. (:
it's gonna be my wedding song.

today, my heart skipped a beat.

//edit

2006-06-02T00:00:00.000+08:00

I THINK I SHOULD STOP BEING NOCTURNAL.

`she's the man

2006-06-01T23:22:00.000+08:00

specially for carrie. (:

yes im a slave driver but they love it.

dont mess with my bodyguards.

my
life
is
so
meaningless.

dont ask what im doing online at this time of the night.
PW IS AN ABSOLUTELY GOOD ANSWER.

hmm life today was interesting?
woke up to toktok's groans of my life is so boring(yeah what a great way to start the day i know)
SO WE DECIDED TO STUDY! (:
and she called mingxia along.

it was the second time in my life waiting for a guy it's seriously super tiring.
when he came we had a long trek to the library where we TRIED really really really hard to find a place.
BUT i guess it was just not meant to be a study day SO we went to watch SHE'S THE MAN. (:
it is seriously good.
everyone should watch it.
I LIKE IT A LOT A LOT ALOT X87964876457.
when a guy(or half a girl) says it's good that means it's a must watch.

ok after that we studied at macs.
right i did a grand total of FOUR questions.
sigh i think im seriously gonna get retained.
i suck at maths.
BRANDON IF YOU'RE READING THIS, I NEED THE TUITION ADDRESS AGAIN.

despite xia's constant mocking of toktok i think he's a nice guy.
he lived through my maths muddle.
OMG BUT HE SAID I WAS BLUR.
LIKE FOR THE 973719812748943478 TIME THIS YEAR.
NO ONE IN CRESCENT EVER EVER EVER EVER SAID I WAS BLUR.
FDNOIWGRIQBTTIYUQTG. rahh.

i think im talking weirdly.
too much pw does weird things to me.
bye tweets.